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Chapter 6 - Diary Entry

As days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months, and months turned into years. I became accustomed to this new way of life. Basically all of my friends had deserted me once they realized that "the Servile" was going to be around for awhile and that I was becoming okay with that; Melanie soon became my friend rather than my charge and I was thankful for that. Of course I still miss my old friends and old life but this is okay too. Leighton has basically disowned me, however, my father is acting strangely almost like I have earned some of his respect, but I shouldn't get ahead of myself. The other Vampire adults and Elders have confronted him on his decision and my lifestyle but he always says that it was my doing and my life, that he is my Father but that is all he is in my life and that I am the one who should be held responsible. I agree with this to his face, but it is not truly the case. He was the one that choose to listen to me and not kill Melanie on the spot, with his strength Father could have easily overpowered me... but he didn't.

I occasionally forget that Serviles have to eat daily but Melanie has become quick to remind me. It is so different from our ways. Our Adult and Elder vampires can go weeks between feedings, a full month if they drain every drop of blood from their prey; as for us children, we need nourishment daily but we only require a couple juice boxes to keep us going, pretty low maintenance if you think about it.

Melanie is strange, she is making me look at Serviles differently, I'm beginning to see them as people rather than "walking Blood Banks" as Rosalie so nicely put it. However, I still refuse to socialize with other Serviles, that is just not going to happen.  This new perspective is going to make things even more difficult as I reach puberty. And that is a topic that has been weighing heavily on my mind, I wish I had someone to talk to someone to confide in, someone that would understand. Melanie is nice but she will never understand and I am deeply dreading Leighton and I's upcoming birthday. It has been almost five years living with a Servile and now our 13th birthday is looming. I do not know what is going to happen to Melanie, I refuse to believe that I would hurt her, but as teenagers, Vampire puberty hits us hard, and hits us where it hurts. I think I shall send her away, to go live with some distant relative of hers perhaps, her mother's disappearance has gone from headlines and minds so Father should allow it. I do not even want to imagine her here with Leighton as we age. He would make her his first in the beat of a heart and enjoy every minute of it... I can't let that happen, but sometimes I wonder if that is what Father had planned all along, for us to raise her like a cow for slaughter... I suppose I'd best go now and enjoy what time I have left with my friend. I shall discuss the matter with Father when he wakes up tonight.

~October