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Chapter 12 - So much for that

As I watch her walk away my mind is blank, I don't know what to say, how to react, what to do... I mean she can't be a part of my life, and I didn't want to be her friend, I don't need friends, right? I snatch up my schoolbag and walk towards the gym not really caring how late I am or if I even get there at all. I'm still trying to make sense of everything that just happened. 

She isn't right... right? I mean she told me that I think everything is about me, and that is so not true... I never meant to upset her; I was just freaked out. I fucked up big time. Wait, why did I fuck up? This is a good thing, now she'll stay away from me and be a regular Servile... but what about the dreams? and the scent? I need a friend to talk to, one that would understand me, I want my dad...

I get to class and change out just in time to run laps. My mind is more clouded than ever and I'm barely aware of anything going on around me when I run smack into the back of Rosalie. 

"Sorry." I mutter as I pick myself up off of the track.

"Save it Heat Seeker, no one cares." She shoots me a piercing glare then returns to her laps with her Ice Pick Roadies close behind.

Ugh. I think I sprained my ankle, I wish I could just fly over to Coach but that's "against the rules", fuck. I limp over to Coach and he writes me a pass to the clinic knowing just as well as I know that no one is going to help me get there. About halfway there it hits me, her scent, I'd like to get away as quick as possible but I can hardly walk.

"October? Why are you limping?" I can hear the concern in her voice as she runs to catch up with me, "here let me help you." Melanie takes my arm and puts it over her shoulder then places her hand on my waist. "Just put your weight on me, I've got you." I nod in acknowledgement and concentrate on walking until we get to the clinic trying to block out the electricity running through me and the alluring scent that's plaguing me . Melanie speaks with Madame Boseski to check me in and then brings me the bag of ice to help my ankle. 

"Well, so much for staying out of my life." She sits beside me and smirks.

Defensively I growl, "You are the one who said to, you are also the one who ran up to help me so don't even start with me." I grimace as I see the hurt on her face and quickly retract my statement. "What I meant to say was, Melanie, I'm sorry for earlier, I was just freaked out and scared and vulnerable which is not something I am accustomed to. Thank you for helping me." I look up into her brilliant green eyes and see a smile dancing upon her lips. Maybe I could use a friend, especially Melanie, I could deal with her being my friend again...

"You're welcome October, I'll see you later." She gets a pass from Madame Boseski then is gone on her way to class as I smile to myself. I can't remember the last time I smiled.. I sit back against the wall and relax waiting on the ice to stop the pain in my leg and replaying the last few weeks I had with Melanie as a child in my head...

~flashback~

"Come on October you can be the prince and I'll be the princess since we both know how much you hate dresses!" I watch Melanie rummaging through our costume chest as I sit on her bed and laugh, "Fine but there is no way I'm saving you again!" 

She throws my outfit to me and wastes no time putting her's on so I follow suit, she smiles and scoffs, "Hmph! Some Prince Charming you are!" I laugh and stick my tongue out at her and she makes an equally silly face back at me. We climb "the castle walls", fight a dragon and evil warlock, and then have a tea party to celebrate with her teddy bear. "To the best Prince Charming in the world!" Melanie toasts, "Here Here! And also to the Bravest Damsel in Distress the world has ever seen!" I respond and we laugh for ages. 

~end flashback~

"Father? May I speak with you?" I knock on my Fathers door terrified on what he is going to say, or do, and wondering if he'll even listen at all. I've built up to this moment all day and it could all turn to nothing with silence from the other side. Maybe that would be best, I mean there's no chance of me dying that way.

"Yes October, come in, are you planning on making this a habit"

I look down, "my apologies Father, I just needed to speak with you about something..."

"I see, well, let's make it quick, I have to hunt soon." He stands at his dresser and looks over at me, "well?"

This was a terrible idea, maybe I should just leave now... "I well, I have some questions about my transformation..."

"Yes, out with it then."

I have to word this carefully... "I.. Um... Why are some scents different from others? I know all Vampires have different scents, and Servilles all smell the same, but what if a person's smells different?" And he smiles? What the fuck is he smiling  for?

"October, who exactly smells different than the rest?"

"Noone! I mean No one, Father. I am merely curious, I have heard talk of it."

He sees right through me; Please drop it, Please drop it, Please-

"Is that so, how do they describe the smell then?"

"Sweet, sickeningly so." I responded much too quickly. fuck. He knows, he so knows. 

"Well, that is a rarity at your peer's young age, they may have heard their Elders talking about it and are only smelling it because they want too. Regardless, do you recall in your readings how the Serviles describe a "soul mate"?" 

I nod as a response fearing where this is going as he continues...

"Well, it is equivalent to that, only two people who are destined to become one can smell the scent on eachother. It is sickening while the two are apart but once they are together, or on the path to being together it changes into the scent of the truest attraction."

You have got to be kidding me... There is no way in hell-

"Is that your only question October?"

"Thank you for sharing your knowledge Father, but I do have one more question. Say for instance, the two Vampires choose to ignore the scent or go against it, what will happen?"

"October, daughter, that is not our way, we understand that even though we have powers beyond our years, Fate has the ultimate power, and we will bend to its' ways... However, if something happens outside of control and one of the pair is lost, gone forever, the remaining Vampire will... well let's just leave it at one cannot exist without the other... Now daughter, I have a question for you." 

"Yes Father?" My mind is absolutely blank... just blank...

"I know you are just 15, however your brother is progressing more quickly than anticipated in his transformation.. Have you had any visions, feelings, or prophetic dreams perhaps?

My eyes go wide and I swallow hard, holy fuck he knows, "N-No Father, nothing... May I be excused now?"

"Yes October, you may go, have a pleasant night." He dismissed me and I barely kept my composure as I left his room and walked into mine. You have got to be kidding me, there is no way... there is NO FUCKING WAY that I can be meant to be with A SERVILE... Fate has lost it's flippin mind. 

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A/N: GAH WRITERS BLOCK, HOW I HATE THEE!!! Sorry I took so long to update yall. But now that this chapter is over and done with maybe Ill be able to move onto what I actually have good ideas for lol.