Never Perfect (Ciel x Lizzy, Sequel To Happiness)

"His Butler, Loss."

I get that you guys wanted a happy sequel but, you guys know me better, right? I hope you guys enjoy the first chapter to the sequel of Happiness!

Trigger warning: If you are light hearted and/or sensitive, be cautious. You have been warned.

-ELIZABETH'S P.O.V.-

I either slept all day or nothing at all. I couldn't eat. I couldn't feel. I was broken. I wish I could say I was an emotional reck, but I just felt empty. I knew I had people I could rely on and trust and cry to but I didn't want to see anyone. I didn't want anyone around me yet I constantly felt lonely.

"Lizzy," He spoke and broke me from my trance. I looked up at him but said nothing. I waited for him to speak. "You have to eat, you seem malnourished."

"I'm fine." I lied. I didn't know why I was doing this to myself, why I couldn't just sit and have a meal with my husband. I stood up and didn't quite look at him. "I'm going to bed early tonight."

"Let me help you to the room." Ciel was now also standing.

"I'm fine.. I'm fine."

He nodded slightly, and focused on his plate. "Alright, I have a bit of paperwork and then I'll join you."

I headed upstairs and into our room. I peeled off my clothes and went into the bathroom, running myself a bath.

It had been like this for what seemed like an eternity. We hardly spoke, he didn't look at me half the time. He always found an excuse to be cooped up in his office and I just never wanted to be around anyone.

Our marriage at the moment was barley hanging on by a string. We hadn't even held hands since then. I had gone cold and his emotionless persona returned. As much as I hated admitting it, there was no love in our marriage at the moment. No-no. The was no emotions in it. Our marriage was almost non-existent at this point.

The only exceptions were was every now and them when I would break down. He would actually hold me.

We'd been doing this for a couple of months now. Going to bed at different times, avoiding eye contact. I hated this. I hated everything.

While lost in my thoughts, I had failed to notice that Ciel had come in. "I brought you something small to our room just in case you change your mind about eating." I nodded.

"Could you hand me a robe?" I asked. My intimate feelings for him had also been lacking. Could you blame me though?

I hid myself in the bubbles and he did as I asked. I took it from his hands with a thank you. Instead of waiting for him to leave I stood up and got out of the tub. He was my husband. No matter what the situation was, I loved him.

He almost flinched when I stepped out and slid into it in front of him. To me, there was nothing sexual about my actions, not from my part anyways. That was the last thing on my mind. I know what he was looking at.. The bruises, the cuts. All of it.

"Will you come to bed with me tonight?" Even if it's just for tonight, I am sick of being alone. I just need him to hold me for once. He replied with a nod and held out his hand for me. I was about to reject when he drew back his hand, seeing my obvious discomfort.

He opened the medicine cabinet and he help me with the wrapping my wounds; afterwards, walked back into our room where we changed into pajamas. I climbed into bed first and he followed. He turned facing away from me and I couldn't help but to sigh. I guess this is what I get for trying. I craved for human affection, a hug-- something. Even if I was hesitant I could feel myself break more and more each day we lived like this.

Ever since the accident, we'd both shut down. My mother, father, and my own child had died because some business men going after Ciel thought it would be the best revenge.

Our child was only half a demon, but it was still all too much for an infant.

I felt the tears fell from my eyes just by thinking of it. I put a hand over my mouth and held back the sobs as my body shook. I had only suffered a broken leg, a handful of stabbings, bruises..but that was it. But my baby, my poor baby....

Ciel blamed himself and shut me out. I felt alone in this world and some days I just wish I could fade away.

I felt arms embrace me and I turned to face him. I held onto him tightly and I sobbed, crying horribly into his shoulder. He pulled my close and kissed my head.

"I'm sorry..." I whispered once I managed to calm down. I wiped my remaining tears away and glanced away.

Ciel looked at me and we made eye contact for the first time in a long while. It seemed we'd only looked at each other when I cried. "Goodnight..." I said before turning back around.

I didn't know what else to do. Ciel was driven by hatred and revenge, the very thing that killed our son. For once, I just wanted to love him and be happy.

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