Never Perfect (Ciel x Lizzy, Sequel To Happiness)

"His Butler, Strength."

Heyyyy, guys. So, I have found that coming up with ideas for chapters is easier when it comes to this book than it is to my other one. I will however make it up!

Anyways, enjoy. c:

-CIEL'S P.O.V.-

"Elizabeth," I spoke out, bringing her into my arms again. Once again she turned to me, tears in those bright green eyes. I honestly didn't know what to do. It seemed that whenever we were happy, something had to come along and tear us apart. Our family this time..

Elizabeth looked at me which so much sorrow in her eyes and it hurt to know that no matter how hard I tried.. I couldn't fix her. I couldn't fix it this time.

I kissed her head, showing her at least some affection. Her arms wrapped around me and she moved some, kissing my cheek in return. "Goodnight," I whispered.

I held her close for once but I drew back a little. I had forgotten about her broken leg and cuts. She shrunk the space in between us, holding onto me as she shut her eyes. "Goodnight." Elizabeth whispered in return.

I watched as my wife drifted off into sleep, clinging onto me. As I held her close, I realized something. I had no idea what we were going to do. Our marriage began to fall apart after the incident and it seems that neither of us has tried to fix it since then.

I felt an pang of overwhelming guilt every time I saw her. Those businessmen had taken her, her parents and our son.. She had survived with a broken leg, a few stabs and cuts. It had been horrible.

It had been a horrific night. I don't think I had ever seen her cry that much. I think the grief might be too much for her this time.

-flashback-

I heard a scream, one that seemed to be calling out bloody murder. I shot the man who attempted to grab me without any questions. "I'll take care of these men, go ahead and find your family." Sebastian called out.

Without another thought, I rushed away. "No..! Not him, please! I'll do anything just leave him alone!" I knew I was still far from the room, she must have been yelling.

A number of screams echoed in the hallway, male and female. Until they suddenly stopped. Damn. This house is like a maze. I knew I was there when two well built men where outside of a door. They charged at me, only getting a few stabs in me before I ended them.

I kicked down the door and what I saw made me believe that everything that I had grown to love was gone. I instantly killed those who were in there with them with a simple gun.

I first saw two dead bodies, one male and one female. At first all I saw was the blonde hair and I felt as if my heart was crashing down on me. I quickly realized those were her parents and I sighed for her loss.

Next I saw another body by the bed.

Walking over to what I thought was the corpse of my bride, I didn't know what I was going to do. There was blood everywhere, her clothes were torn in some places like someone had tried to rip them off. I wasn't sure I wanted to know why she was like that. Elizabeth looked so lifeless. I kneeled on the floor and pulled her into an embrace.

"Lizzy," I felt an overwhelming sense of sadness and guilt. "My wife, my heart. The only person that kept me sane is gone." I had thought.

I listened to her heartbeat, hoping I would get to see her live another day. She was alive but injured to say the least.

Her arm had been shot, her leg was broken, and I don't think I could count the cuts on her body. I held her for a long while, afraid that not everyone would make it out alive.

Elizabeth finally woke up, tears instantly filling her eyes. "My parents." Taking a long pause, she looked at me. "My baby..." She sobbed. "Ciel, our baby... They killed him." Her whole body shook with sobs and she cried into my shoulder for who knows how long.

I gently drew back to look at her. "We have to get you out of here, Elizabeth." I picked her up slowly, being as careful as possible. She was still bleeding and I didn't want to lose my child and my wife in the same day.

-end of flashback-

I looked at the woman that I had married and I held her close. When I lost my parents, she's the only one who kept me sane. Now with the loss of her parents and child, she was just as bad or worse. I had never seen her so broken not even when Hantai died.

Elizabeth woke up and her eyes met mine. She didn't smile like on those nights long ago when we'd catch each other still awake. She used to give me little kisses and say the sweetest things. Lately, when we do this she simply turns away.

I saw her hesitate and think about what she should do. I ran a hand through her blonde hair and I thought I would get a chance to see her smile but instead it seemed as if my hand made her flinch.

If you're wondering why I haven't shown any signs of loss is because I have to be the strong one. Because the truth is that it does hurt to know he's dead, and it kills me everyday to see her like this. But I've dealt with loss like this before. I have no living relatives-only a wife. It hurts but I would rather hold it in and be strong for her. If I were to freak out half as bad she would react ten times worse.

Then again, I wasn't there that night and she refuses to speak of what happened to her. Her cuts, her leg, her gunshot. I know nothing of them but can I blame her? No.

At the moment we just stared at one another, not saying a word. She moved away from me and turned.

I sighed lightly. I didn't know what was going to happen to us. We hardly have a marriage anymore, we don't talk. We don't go to bed at the same time, one of us usually make am excuse to not even eat together and neither of us are home most of the time.

This incident tore a gap in between us- no, a whole. And I don't know if we can fix it this time.

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