Never Perfect (Ciel x Lizzy, Sequel To Happiness)

His Butler, Victim.

Ciel's P.O.V.

Two hours later.

Frustrated was an understatement for how I felt. I wanted to wrip my hair out. I knew it, she hates me. She hates what I am. What I've done to her.

Elizabeth was innocent, pure, and beautiful. But I turned her into a monster, and she let me, metaphorically and literally. And now that she realizes it, she's regretful.

I will never forget the look she gave me when I confirmed that she was a demon. Her eyes grew slightly wide and tears filled them slightly. Her expression was a mixture of terror and... Disgust.

But I can't focus on her right now, it's too destructive. With a sigh, I looked at my son. Luckily he was a sleep. I love him, I do. But there's one problem- I have no knowledge of taking care of a child. Not the slightest bit.

Well, that's an exaggeration. I know the basics, diaper changing and feeding. I just don't know how to sooth a crying infant.

Elizabeth does it easily, as if she'd been doing it everyday of her life.

"Everything's alright, little one. Mummy's here.." She had said softly, gently swaying as she held him in her arms.

I watched her as she smiled faintly when his cries died out. He'd either fall asleep or simply calm down. I was fascinated and somewhat happy.

I shook the thought of her away for the second time but quickly brought it back.

I need to think and ask myself somethings.

Could this lead to a divorce? I hope not.. But I doubt that my storming off fixed anything. Not that I'll admit that to her.

Is she okay? When I left her her eyes were red and she looked so sad. No, not sad.. Lost and emotionless and confused.

But still, she looked at me as if I were some monster. It hurt. It hurt much more than I would ever care to admit.

After some thinking, I felt awful. I felt worse and worse every second, so I decided to head back.

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Elizabeth's P.O.V.

When I woke up, I felt worse than before. I sat up and sighed. It took several minutes before I finally forced myself out of bed.

I slipped off my robe and got dressed. I put on a black dress, not in the mood for color. Tears filled my eyes but I pushed them back. Hantai popped into my head all of the sudden. He's the only one that would be able to truly comfort me. A few tears fell out of my eyes and I quickly swiped them away.

I quickly headed to my dresser and dug around in my jewelry box, pulling out the necklace he had left for me. The tears threatened to fall out again. There's no one here for me. I barley see my friends anymore, Ciel consumes me.

The tears fell again but this time slowly and I only sniffled every now and then, there were no sobs. Just the feeling of tears.

I cried over everything. Everything that had happened over these years still wasn't enough to keep him here. And I love him, so much that it hurts to not be with him.

Just because I'm confused about myself doesn't mean that I don't love him. I loved him before I knew what love was and I love him now.

Always have and always will. And I hate that he left. It's only been hours, but I feel like its been years.

I held the necklace in my hands and gazed at it. I frowned but quickly put it on.

I ran my fingertips on the necklace, sighing. My mind was mess, thinking of a million different things. I wish that I could have him here to comfort me like he did way back when.