Never Perfect (Ciel x Lizzy, Sequel To Happiness)

"His Butler, Love And War,"

LIZZY'S P.O.V.

I picked up Vincent, cradling the crying baby in my arms. Being a mother was difficult and as much as I love my child, this is hard. With Ciel constantly gone, I feel like I am doing this alone.

The week is almost over. Hopefully he will be home soon.. I sat in a rocking chair sigh my son in my arms and sighed. I hated Ciel for doing this to me-- Playing these games with my heart. We have a family, we are married it is time for him to grow up.

Despite Vincent being the result of a rushed relationship, I loved my little baby. He is precious and my family is my whole world to me.

I watched the fussing child fall back asleep and soon enough, I set him in his crib.

Things hadn't been okay in ages, and that fight we had tore an even bigger hole in our marriage. I didn't know if I should leave or not. I love him, but maybe that isn't enough anymore.

With Vincent now in our lives, neither of us should be thinking selfishly.

Looking at the infant, I smiled to myself before leaving the room. I had never felt so torn before. Even when he cheated, when he killed Hantai, when he pushed me away.

This time, it is different. I stayed all those times because I know we loved one another despite it all. Now, I don't know what is left. Our marriage is not in a good condition and it scares me. This time it was more than us in it. It was our child too.

I loved Ciel-- but do I love the new Ciel? The one who does nothing but argue with me and is never home. The one who won't even talk to me half the time.

I headed to the study where I began to finish up managing what my parent's had left for me. My mother worked undercover for the Queen apparently and now it was my duty to do so. Similar to what Ciel does but with calmer cases mostly.

I sat at the desk, filling out paperwork on my last case (a kidnapping of someone important with a ransom, something the Queen didn't want Scotland Yard to handle) when a knock was on the door.

It was Tatiana. "We are back," She announced in her slight Russian accent. "But not for long," She smiled.

"Good. Please leave my office now," I returned the smile and left my desk.

She rolled her eyes and walked away.

*****

Ciel walked inside, his cloak still on and all. "Elizabeth, hi."

"Hello, Ciel. I think we need to have a talk." I stood next to him now.

"I agree." He took my hand and nodded. Hesitant, I intertwined my fingers with his.

"Ciel.." I sighed. "I'm worried about our marriage. We never talked anything through- I just forgave you and then we had a baby. I'm scared because it has finally caught up with us. I love you but I am sick of fighting."

"I know, I know. And that why I think you and I should go away together for a little while." Has he gone mad?

"What?" I questioned. I can't just move passed almost two years full of a sour marriage without talking about it.

"I want to talk about absolutely everything that has happened alone with you-- No distractions or excuses will be there. Sebastian will stay here with the baby and you and I will stay in Italy for a week. Would that be alright?"

I thought about it for a second. "Yes, I would love that." I nodded once and gave him a small smile.

"Good. I have some paper work to do and then I'll help pack since it's already late." He replied.