That Zombie Feeling - A Collection of Poems of an Undiscovered Kikay Poet

Numbness and Dumbness

Like the past few days, I once again feel drained,

Looking at the ceiling, counting the bugs,

Listening to senseless music I couldn't understand,

Somehow I can't make myself move and do,

What must be done, I proceeded listening,

Listening only to my own breathing,

Checking if I'm still alive, if this is still me,

The numbness reigns, like a blinding light,

Even if the truth is the pain never ceases,

I feel strange after I found that,

It's not me that's fills your heart anymore,

Now I do not know what to believe,

The pain seemed to fill all the wiseness and wisdom,

I had, my dreams and goals suddenly went blurred,

Sorrow drowns me and I'm letting it be,

I can only wish and hope, I can make it out... 

still breathing.