Torn

Chapter 11: I Need This

*Ariana's POV*

"I got it!" I said after thinking long and hard on a few excuses.

"Got what?" Justin laughed.

"An idea... I have to make Jai break up with me first. Perfect, right?" I replied, proud with my decision.

"Yeah, but why would he break up with someone so flawless?" Justin asked with a smirk and kissed my cheek.

"Oh, stop it." I said with a wave of my hand, "The key is to be clingy and pushy." I say with a sly nod.

"Oh really? And how exactly does that work?" Justin asked with his eyebrows raised.

"I'll just talk about marriage and kids, you know, stuff like that."

"That'll definitely work." Justin said with a small chuckle.

"I know, guys hate it when girls rush into things, except sex." I say with a finger tapping my chin.

"Ariana!" Justin gasped jokingly.

"Guys are pigs, I swear. Yes, that's including you." I laughed hysterically, then Justin threw a pillow at me and I just laughed harder.

My ringtone went off as soon as I stopped laughing.

Wow, perfect timing.

"Hello?" I spoke into the phone.

"Baby, I'm on your street. Be ready to see me." Jai replied and I will admit, I'm a little excited to see him.

"Okay, I'll just talk to you when you get here." I say.

"Alright, bye."

"Bye." I end the call and look up at Justin.

"I'm going to have to act like I really miss him and all that." I say looking in Justin's eyes.

"I understand, but try not to rub it in, you know I'll be jealous." He says with a wink and I smile.

"If he kisses me or hugs me, try not to freak out. Remember, he doesn't know, okay?" I say starring directly in Justin's eyes as he nods, but his jaw is locked so I can tell he's hesitant.

I kiss him long enough to satisfy myself, since I won't be able to for a while. I'm going to miss his lips. A lot.

"Remember, all mine." He whispers against my lips and I smile with a small nod.

The doorbell rings shortly after, I almost run to the door to open it.

"Jai!" I falsely exclaim and jump into his arms with a hug, then he catches me while twirling me around before putting me back down.

"I missed you so much." Jai said with a quick peck to my lips.

My reaction was to look at Justin, and I see his face turned away and his jaw locked.

He looked sexy if you ask me.

"Jai, this is Justin, Justin this is Jai." I said introducing them as they shook hands.

"So, you guys are staying here? I mean, until you go on tour together?" Jai asked.

"Yeah, but we'll be on tour soon." Justin replies.

"So Justin, let's show Jai around." I suggest and Justin nods.

~

After we show Jai everything, of course, Justin tried to give him his own room. Jai insisted on staying in the same room as me.

"I'm gonna go unpack, I'll be back in a few minutes." Jai said kissing my cheek lightly before making his way to our room.

"I can't believe he wants to be in the same room as you." Justin whisper-yelled after Jai was halfway up the stairs.

"Could you really blame him? He's just used to it, I mean, it's not like he knows we're together." I say and Justin just runs a hand through his hair.

"How long is he staying?" Justin asked.

"A week." I reply.

"I don't know if I'll be able to take him for that long." Justin stated.

"Really Justin?" I say with a challenging tone.

"I mean, what if that's not enough time for you to make him break up with you?" Justin asked, his eyes widening at the thought.

"Then I'll break up with him, no biggie. We're gonna work this out Justin, believe me." I say.

"Okay..." Justin says in a hesitant tone.

"I'm gonna go upstairs and help Jai." I say and make my way to the stairs.

"No, stay down here. He said he'll be back in a few minutes." Justin whined.

I giggled, "Justin, really? I'll be fine." I say dragging out the 'I' a bit.

"Ugh, alright." Justin sighed before sitting on the couch while watching sports.

I made my way upstairs to see Jai had put all of his stuff away.

"Need any help?" I ask looking at his figure in front of me.

His body snapped around to look at me as a smile tugged at the corner of his lips.

"Yeah, actually, I do." Jai replied and scratched the back of his head.

"With what? It looks like you have everything unpacked." I say scanning his luggage, which was indeed empty.

"I need you to help me with..." he began taking a step towards me.
"feeling lonely," took another step closer to me,
"feeling like, your girl isn't yours anymore," he took another step closer to me,
"feeling that needy and emptiness that needs to be gone... I need you to make it all go away."

Now he was almost touching my body with his as my heart rate picked up.

What does he actually mean?

"That feeling of wanting someone so bad and going weeks without them, but you just can't have them." He muttered huskily, while starring at my lips.

"Jai," I breathed out, "where exactly are you going with this?" I whisper almost against his lips.

"I want you Ariana, I need you." Jai said before smashing his lips onto mine, which gave me no time to hesitate. He quickly asked for entrance by grabbing my ass, as I opened my mouth in surprise he slipped his tongue in my mouth.

Good thing the door was shut or else Justin would flip...

I didn't know how to react, whether to pull away, or keep going.

He begins to get rough and it almost hurts because of how swollen my lips are from last night, but I ignore the pain.

Jai pushes me on the bed and hovers over me while still kissing me.

"You have no idea how long I've been waiting to take you, Ariana." Jai whispers in my ear, which makes me get butterflies. Realization hits when I see the bulge in his paints as he's taking off his shirt.

"No." I reply lowly, putting my hand on his chest to stop him from going any further.

"What do you mean 'no'?" Jai asks, his breathing heavy and uneven.

"I- I'm not ready."

"We've done this before Ariana, it's nothing new. You don't have to be scared." He replies.

"I- I know I just-"

"Then let me make you feel good baby." Jai replies wetting his lips briefly and looking down into my eyes.

"Jai, I don't want to, okay?" I say trying to get him to stop.

"Ariana, please. I need this, I'm sure you do too." Jai replies and I give him a glare.

"How do I need this, Jai?" I say slightly irritated.

"Dammit Ariana, I've been waiting long enough can't you just do it this once?" Jai asks aggravatingly.

"But I-"

"Baby, just let me show you how much I love you." He replies in his raspy voice.

Which is truthfully sexy.

He begins to take off his shirt, I already know where this is going of course, and for some odd reason... I don't try to stop him this time.