I never thought it was possible to love someone so much that the task of watching them do simple things like, grab a glass of water, made you smile and love who they are. Rayne and I were in mid conversation about something, and I just couldn't stop staring at her, maybe it was the way the sun kissed her brown skin giving her an almost perfect tan. Maybe it was the way she smiled, her lips shaped perfectly and were beautifully soft, her teeth perfectly white. She was almost perfect in every way. I was honestly lost in her love, beauty..
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"Mike are you listening?" She giggles, waving a hand in front of my face.
"Yeah. I am.." I say distracted. "Do you know how beautiful you are?"
"Only because you tell me everyday." She laughs, taking a sip of her water. "Did you hear what I said though?"
"No." I admit, laughing. "What'd you say?"
She playfully rolls her eyes, "I said, now that you've made me visit my mom's grave, I really think you should talk to your family more. I mean, when you're on tour you talk to me practically every day. But they never hear from you."
"They aren't my wife. I don't have to check in with them. I have to check in with you." I smile, standing in front of her, kissing her forehead.
"I get that. But not even your mom?" She says looking up at me, a small pout in her face.
"I speak to mother enough. But I don't wanna worry about that right now. It's about me and you." I lay soft kisses against her neck. "We need to worry about our own family." I continue. She swiftly pushes me off of her, leaving me in confusion.
"Oh, Michael.. A family? I don't know about that just yet. I don't think I want kids." She stammers.
"Why not?" I ask knitting my brows together.
"I don't know. I just don't think I'm ready to be a mother. My mother never-"
"That's what this is about. Ray, you will never be your mother. The way Joseph raised us, I'd never raise my child like that. I learned that's not what I want. You need to do the same thing, learn from your mothers mistakes, and make sure you don't make the same ones." I say, placing my hands on her hips.
"But what about your career? I mean you'll be going on tour and making music-"
"Once we have our child I'm willing to stop all of that for us. I couldn't imagine not having a child with you. It's not about me or you anymore. Anything that happens now, it's for us together." I explain.
"Can we talk about it for a while?" She shrugs.
I give up for today giving a sigh and nodding my head. I hope we get to an agreement, I really wanted children..
We spent two weeks together on an island by Hawaii. It had been the most relaxed we had been in a while. After my tour, I was physically drained and after Rayne attempting to plan our wedding and dealing with my sisters, she was mentally drained. We needed this time to ourselves.
