A Selfish Kind Of Love

Word To The Badd

~Rayne's POV

"No message could've been any clearer, if you wanna make the world a better place take a look at yourself and make a change .."

I wipe another tear from my eye, why was this video so sad? Tear after tear, I sobbed as videos of hungry children flashed across the screen.

"Hey Ray what do you think of- Why are you crying?" Michael frowned closing the front door behind him.

I toss my hands up, "I don't freaking know! I just came across your video and just got so sad!" I scoff, wiping tears away angrily. Michael giggles sitting next to me.

"You must think I'm so stupid, sitting here crying." I pout.

"Of course I don't. It's just your hormones." He smiles.

"I know and they're raging! I don't know if I wanna eat waffles or have sex."

Michael giggles, wrapping his arm around me, placing my head under his chin. "Poor baby."

"This pregnancy thing sucks, it's only been 3 months." I groan standing to my feet. Michael stands behind me cuffing the small stomach protruding from my naturally slim build.

"When are we telling our families about our bun in the oven?"

"I can't hide for 6 more months so why don't we do it this weekend." I roll my eyes, I'm still not excited to be having a child. My father is always supportive of me but I can't even think of his reaction to me having a kid. "Although, I don't want it to be a big announcement. I just wanna tell everyone and get it over with."

"Rayne this is a big deal. I know you're not excited now, but just stay open. We're having a kid."

"Michael.. I know, but I'm not gonna change my opinion on this. I don't think we're ready."

Michael let's out a defeated sigh and heads to the bedroom. I really hated to make him feel like this, but I wasn't ready. I wished he'd understand where I was coming from.

***

The next morning I woke up feeling like I wanted to release all the contents in my stomach. I was extremely dizzy and my head just kept spinning, I couldn't get out of bed if I wanted to. I roll over to grab hold of my husband who wasn't even there. I open my eyes , my brows knitted together in confusion. He's never usually gone this early. I use the phone to call Bill.

"This is Bill."

"Bill it's Rayne. Where's Michael?"

"Good morning Rayne, Michael decided to get an early start at the studio, I'm here with him now. Did you need to speak with him?"

"No. Thank you." Why wouldn't he tell me he was leaving early? I decided to call Sharlissa over and give her the news. I know she'll be excited.

**

"Do you know how hard it was to find this place?" She chuckles as I allow her inside.

"I know. But you made it." I grin watching her look around the house. "I called you over because I wanted to tell you what's been going on.. "

Sharlissa draws all her attention to me, "what happened?"

"I'm pregnant.." I say softly.

Sharlissa screams at the top of her lungs. "CONGRATULATIONS OH MY GOD I KNEW YOU'D BE PREGNANT SOON!" She covers her giggling lips with her hands. As I place a finger on my lips.

"Sharlissa, you're the only person I told. You have to keep it a secret."

"You've got my word! I'm so excited for you!" She claps. I gave her a weak smile. "You really aren't happy about this." She realizes, her grin fading.