The Demon In Him (NARRY)

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Harry:

Setting the fragile body into the passenger seat of my car, I take a quick long glance at his face.

He was sleeping, with the most peaceful tiredness shown all over his face. I traced my thumb over his cheekbone, able to feel the slight stickiness of tears. I did that to him, and nothing had the ability to twist a knife deeper into my heart harder than that.

Dropping my thumb down to his thin lips that were full of toxic alcohol, I fought to feel them on my own.

I couldn't kiss him, but I wanted to so badly.

But I didn't deserve it.

Without another thought, I forcefully tear myself away from him, before I shut the door and stumble the slightest to the driver's seat.

I glance over at him one more time before looking down, a couple unfinished sniffles pulling through before I start the car and drive out of the lot.

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I pulled up on his driveway, but I couldn't get myself to get out of the car. Instead, I leaned back in my seat, looking over to him before I close my eyes and sob softly to myself.

What am I doing?

Why did I think it was a good idea to come back?

It clearly wasn't.

He hated me, I couldn't make things right.

I didn't know how to.

He was better off without me, anyway. He could be happy with someone else and have the life that he desired.

The life that I failed to give him. The life that I stripped away from him.

Everything was my fault. Everything.

From the start.

"Harry?" I heard from a distance before looking up and seeing Selena through the windshield.

I smiled a little through the transparency and quickly wiped away my tears, but the scars still showed throughout my face.

"It's been a long time," I whispered as she walked to my window, trying not to fall apart although my lips trembled the slightest bit.

"Three years," she mumbled back, smiling at the corner of her lips weakly.

It wasn't long before she spotted Niall in the other seat.

Her face immediately dropped.

She looked back at me and nodding softly, "Guessing he didn't take it well." She sighed softly, looking down.

I stayed silent.

She looked back up, "We have a lot to catch up on. I'll uh...wait inside," she smiled a bit before adding. "I'm just...I'm glad you're back."

I smiled a little before she headed inside.

I cleared my throat and headed out to the passenger seat to carry him inside. Picking his legs first, I carried him bridal style into the house before Selena gestured to his room and I nodded, softly, heading in.