"Denver, you have me..." "No Pony. I have no one. Even though i wanted to leave that many years ago, you could have tried to stop me. Any of you could have. I feel like no one cares about me..." "I care. I do. Soda cares, and im sure your dad cares. He just needs a little time..." "I didnt know he needed sixteen years.." Our conversation was cut short when i heard someone yelling. "Im sure shes here! My friends told me she lived here!", my fathers voice yelled.
My eyes widened. I could kill Darry right now for telling him. I looked at Pony. "I dont want to see him. I never want to see him again", i said. Pony made a scared face and pointed towards the door. I looked towards the door. My father stood there, looking really sad and disappointed. "You heard me. I dont want to see you", i said. "Pony, give us a minute", he said. "Dont give us a minute Pony. Im not talking to him", i said. "Pony",, Dallas gave him a look. Pony looked at me, giving me a "good luck' look, and left.
I wouldnt look at him. I moved and sat on my couch. He moved so he stood in front of the door. "We need to talk Denver", he said. "No we dont. You can leave. Like i said, i never ever want to see you again", i said, sending a death glare his way. "Im your father, and you wont talk to me like that", he snapped. "Your not my father. Biologically, yes you are, but your no father to me. My mother would be disappointed in you", i spat. "How would you know? She died before you were a year old! Never ever speak about your mother", he yelled at me. "I will speak about my mother all i want! Shes my mother!", i screamed at him.
"She was my wife!", he yelled back. "No she wasnt. You never got married. But you have yourself a new girl, dont you? And two more kids? I hate you!", i screamed. "I hate myself!", he yelled back. I looked up confused. "What?", i asked. "You dont understand. I hate myself. Im the reason your mother is gone", he said. I got angry again. "You son of a bitch! What did you do?", i yelled.
"I.. i tried to kill myself. My best friend died and i couldnt take that he was gone. I pulled a heater on the cops, and they were about to shoot at me. At the last second, your mother jumped in front of me to take the bullets for me. I didnt want her too. She did it anyway. Now i live in regret. I really messed up by letting you go. I should have never did that and i should have been a better dad but i wasnt. You have to believe me", he said.
"You were going to leave me and mom?", i asked. "I really wasnt thinking. I loved the two of you and i regret my decision deeply. Instead of losing one, i lost two. Then eventually three. I overreacted and im sorry", he said.
I dont know how to react. "Why did you move on? You never came back for me. You just started a whole new family, and forgot about this one. How could you?", i asked. "You dont understand Den. I needed someone new. I needed to forget your mother. I needed another girl..." "I understand fine. If you havent noticed, im a teenage girl. I like boys. I understand dating." "So..." "You didnt answer my question." "What?" "Why did you leave me? I needed a dad because i didnt have my mom anymore. But you left. Ya know, you can just leave. There really isnt any excuse you have that will make me forgive you."
"Your right. I...i just want you to know im sorry. Its all my fault. And before i go, i want you to know one more thing. I love you. I really do." He left and left me shocked.
