A Heart Full of Regrets (COMPLETED) #Wattys2016

PROLOGUE

I have my family but I want to be independent.

I have a lot of friends but I chose to be alone.

I have many suitors but I'd rather say no.

No one still care about me.

No one knows that Im sick.

No one see me unhappy.

No one see me crying.

No one see me dying.

Because the truth is...

I have no family that supports me everytime I need a lot of courage.

I have no friends that are willing to lend an ear everytime I have a problem.

I have no suitor that accompanies me everytime I need comfort.

All I have is myself.

Myself that I need to help.

Myself that I need to care.

And myself that I need to love.

Because no one in this world is permanent.

No one in this world can stays forever with you.

Because your days, your nights, your life is only temporary.

But not until I met him.

I ate all my words and started to believe in forever right after I met this man.

Everytime I see him, my day is already complete.

But everytime he see me, his day is already ruined.

Everytime I look at him, I smile like an idiot.

But everytime he looks at me,he's glaring back as if  I'm the most stupid person he knows. Well, I am.

But despite of all those things, I still love him.

All my life, I convinced myself to believe that he cares for me even though he's not.

All my life, I forced myself to believe that he loves me when the truth is...

He will never be..