*JESS’S POV*
It’s been a week since the accident. Calums staying in bed. At times his heart monitor goes all crazy. The doctor says he’s having these crazy dream, that’s why his body has these random moments when his heart goes crazy.
I was in the room, waiting by Calum’s bed, just talking to him.
“It’s going to be okay Calum, you will wake up, and then we can get married maybe? I don’t know. Is 18 too young to be married? I don’t know, I don’t care. Because we won’t go our separate ways” I sighed before continuing to talk, “the fans, they are starting to get really worried. I’ve talked to some of them, you know, when I’m walking outside getting some fresh air, they come up to me, tears in their eyes as well. You think that the boys have it hardest, but when you see the fans, it really does hurt. It hits you like a ton of bricks how realistic this is. When I’m with you, it feels like a fairy tale, it feels like you’re going to wake up, and we will live happily ever after. But life has to ruin it. When you see the boys, they…” I paused, more tears going down my face. I haven’t talked to anybody about how this has been affecting me. I just wanted a hug from Calum right now; I wanted him to tell me how he was feeling. “They aren’t good Calum, they’re scared. Ashton came in before, he um… he came up with a new song title, he wrote some of the lyrics. He called it, “Don’t” it’s a song about not giving up on people while they slowly slip away though your fingertips. Michael, it’s hard to see him without his red eyes, his hair a mess, his clothes are ripped, and grubby. He hasn’t left the hospital in 3 days. Then there’s Luke. He seems as life-less as you Luke right now. He hasn’t left the hospital in over a week. Having showers here, Ashton goes and gets everyone some new clothes every second day. I’m lucky if I can get Michael and Luke to stand outside for 15 minutes a day, just for some fresh air. Everything they go outside, they tell me that you’re waking up, they just rush back inside, more tears escaping their eyes when they find you exactly how they left you.” I held Calum’s hand tighter, hoping for some sort of repose, but of course that didn’t happen. “But you know what? I’m not giving up on you; I’m not giving up on us. You didn’t give up on me for 3 years, so there is no way in hell I am giving up on you,” I lifted Calums hand to my lips, feeling his cold skin against my lips.
I just waited there, by Calum’s bed. His heart was going crazy, so I knew he was having one of those weird dreams again.
“Miss. Moor” a deep voice came up behind me, “where are the others?” it was the doctor.
“They went to go and get some food” I explained, “what’s wrong?” I asked, squeezing Calum’s hand tighter. I was scared I was going to lose him.
“We got the test results back just then” the doctor started saying, “I’m sorry…” the doctor started saying, “but, there isn’t much hope, we don’t think he’s going to last the rest of the week.”
I can’t explain how I felt. There are no words to explain this heart-break. To feel this empty, you would have to be dead, which was exactly how I felt. Tears, there weren’t any. Tears weren’t enough to explain how I felt.
Instead I turned to Calum, “can you please leave?” I asked the doctor,
“Of course” he said, shutting the door behind him.
“Why Calum?” I asked, “Why are you doing this? Hurting the people you love?” I just wanted to know why he would do this, “it was meant to be you and me together… Forever. What am I meant to do, grow old by myself? I can never love again Calum; you are the person that I have loved since I was 15. That was nearly 4 years ago, which 3 we spent apart, yet I still loved you, I still do” I pulled my hand away from his, not being able to look at him anymore.
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“WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE’S GOING TO DIE?” Luke yelled, right in my face, “CALUM YOU CAN’T DO THIS! THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT JESS!” he started yelling at me again. “IF YOU DIDN’T LEAVE HIM, HE WOULDN’T HAVE DONE THIS!”
“I KNOW LUKE! I KNOW! I HAVE TO LIVE WITH THIS ASWELL!” I yelled back, even more guilt rushing over me.
I turned around so I was looking back out the window.
A knife though the chest would hurt less than this.
*MICHAEL’S POV*
After being best friends with someone for over 10 years, you learn a thing or two about their movements. About their actions, their expressions, about who they are.
I know Calum, I know who is his. He isn’t one to give up, especially on Jess.
“He isn’t going to die” I looked at me, “you aren’t, I know you better than anyone else in this room, you can bet the test results, they are crap” I said, as calmly as I could. “You can do this, you will do this, this is the only thing you know how to do. The only thing you know how to do it love Jess, and you aren’t doing it, the only way you are going to do it is if you stay. So stay Calum, please. Just a single moment, something,” I took my last breathe, watching his life-less actions left.
“That’s it” I whispered, watching him.
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