this music addiction is starting to get out of hand... anyways its still there if you want to listen to it
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*CALUM’S POV*
I lay there, on my death bed. Waiting. Watching Jess. She sat next to my bed, playing with my fingers. “It’s going to be okay Calum, you will wake up, and then we can get married maybe? I don’t know. Is 18 too young to be married? I don’t know, I don’t care. Because we won’t go our separate ways” she sighed before continuing to talk, “the fans, they are starting to get really worried. I’ve talked to some of them, you know, when I’m walking outside getting some fresh air, they come up to me, tears in their eyes as well. You think that the boys have it hardest, but when you see the fans, it really does hurt. It hits you like a ton of bricks how realistic this is. When I’m with you, it feels like a fairy tale, it feels like you’re going to wake up, and we will live happily ever after. But life has to ruin it. When you see the boys, they…” She paused, more tears going down her face. I wanted to hug her, tell her I was fine, but I can’t move. “They aren’t good Calum, they’re scared. Ashton came in before, he um… he came up with a new song title, he wrote some of the lyrics. He called it, “Don’t” it’s a song about not giving up on people while they slowly slip away though your fingertips. Michael, it’s hard to see him without his red eyes, his hair a mess, his clothes are ripped, and grubby. He hasn’t left the hospital in 3 days. Then there’s Luke. He seems as life-less as you Luke right now. He hasn’t left the hospital in over a week. Having showers here, Ashton goes and gets everyone some new clothes every second day. I’m lucky if I can get Michael and Luke to stand outside for 15 minutes a day, just for some fresh air. Everything they go outside, they tell me that you’re waking up, they just rush back inside, more tears escaping their eyes when they find you exactly how they left you.” Jess held my hand tighter, I just wanted to open up my eyes, squeeze her hand or even just lift a finger so she knows that I’m okay. “But you know what? I’m not giving up on you; I’m not giving up on us. You didn’t give up on me for 3 years, so there is no way in hell I am giving up on you” she lifted up my hand, bring my hand to her lips, kissing my cold skin carefully.
“Miss. Moor” a different voice came in, “where are the others?” the deep voice asked,
“They went to go and get some food” Jess said, “what’s wrong?” she asked, squeezing my hand tighter, it hurt, but yet, it was comforting. Jess’s touch in total was comforting.
“We got the test results back just then” the doctor started saying, “I’m sorry…” the doctor started saying, I didn’t hear the rest of it, everything went back to being black again.
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“WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE’S GOING TO DIE?” Luke yelled, “CALUM YOU CAN’T DO THIS! THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT JESS!” he started yelling at her, I may be dead, but I just wanted to punch him in the face for saying that. “IF YOU DIDN’T LEAVE HIM, HE WOULDN’T HAVE DONE THIS!”
“I KNOW LUKE! I KNOW! I HAVE TO LIVE WITH THIS ASWELL!” Jess yelled back.
Then, back to black.
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I opened up my eyes, I was in a park. Wait… why is there a headstone here? And another one? Oh, Jess? Did I really leave you like that? Did I leave the boys? The fans? My family and friends? I just left them like that?
“Hey dude” It was Luke, “um… I thought I’d let you know some news today, something I just found out, but I thought you would be the first one to know. Um… today is 1 month since you pasted, and people say that people with a broken heart can’t live for more than 2 months, broken heart like Jess had, the death kind of one. You probably already know this, she is probably already up there with you know. You guys are probably in a make-out session or something like that?” Luke chuckled the last sentence, before letting the tears fall.
“Calum?” I turned around to see Jess,
“Jess, what are you doing?” I asked,
“I didn’t choose to, but it’s okay” she wiped away the tear going down my cheek.
“It wasn’t suicide; the doctors say that it was a broken heart. She died from a broken heart Cal. I was blaming you at the start, making her die, just like I blamed Jess for your death. But, this was your way of being together.” Luke ran his fingers over his face, wiping away more of the tears. “Can you tell her that I’m sorry?” he asked, “I never meant to blame Jess for everything, she knew everything about me Calum, she knew about the scars, she knew about Tim and I, she knew everything about me, and I hated her for it. She was just trying to be a good friend to me and save you while she was slowly dying.”
“Why did you do this?” I asked, taking Jess into my arms,
“I didn’t choose Calum, you know when people say ‘listen to your heart?’ well I did, and it leaded me to this” she kissed my forehead.
“I love you so much” I brushed my thumb over her cheek,
“I love you too Cal” she whispered as we finally kissed. It’s hard to believe that it’s the first kiss we’ve had in 3 years.
“The fans, they aren’t taking this so well.” Luke continued, “I’m scared for their sake, I know you didn’t choose this, and I’m sorry that you had to end up like this, but I think that they are happier knowing that you are there with Jess. They adored her, right after you passed, she would just constantly take care of them. Whenever she was out, she would…” he was choking on his tears. “She would, well they would, go up to her, tears running down their cheeks. She would hug them, telling them how much you loved them, about how you are in a place of no pain now. She would also buy them an ice-cream or a drink or something. She never really focused on the money, like she was trying to waste it, but put it to good use. I wonder if she knew her time was coming to an end?” he asked himself.
“Did you?” I asked her,
“Calum I have to go now” Jess said, slowly walking away
“What? where are you going?” I tried to move, but it seemed like there was a wall between me and her
“I’m not allowed to stay” she whispered, trying her best to stay strong.
“You’re going back to earth?” I asked her,
“No, I’m just not allowed here, I don’t know, but I’ll fight to see you again Calum, I’m not giving up on you” she slowly faded away.
“I’ll be back tomorrow Calum, but not the day after, we’ve got Jess’s funeral now. I hope you guys are happy together now” he wiped away the rest of his tears before standing up and walking away.
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HOLLY SHIT THE TEARS GOING DOWN MY FACE RIGHT NOW IS NOT FUN!! i started crying half way though this chapter, so sorry if its not the best, i just wanted to get the story line across.
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