Three words one meaning

Christmas Eve

Chapter 12
My alarm rings at 5:30. I lean over my small desk and press snooze. I don't want to wake Harry. Wait what. What happened last night? Why is Harry here? I look for Jade for answers but she is barley awake. I look at Harry and realise he smells like alcohol which makes all the memories from last night flood back into my thoughts. The words he expressed to me were hurtful no matter how hard he tried to say sorry they made a scar upon my brain. "I-I like you." The humiliating words replay in my head over and over. I lift myself up from Harry's grip and realise I didn't wake up at all last night which hasn't happened since I moved here. Was it because Harry makes me feel safe? I don't know. I hurry for the shower as our flight leaves at 8am. Jade comes to the shower blocks with me and we get ready in there. I place a little bit of makeup on my face and Jade does the same. We discuss how well she's doing after the break up and she thanks me for helping her through her time at uni. As we walk down the corridor Harry is standing outside leaning against the wall. Jade walks into our room as I do the same. Just as I am about to enter the room Harry grabs my arm and pushes me into his chest. "What happened?" Harry asks me like he doesn't know what his done. "You--you--you cursed me out yesterday, called me nasty names and then said that you needed me when I tried to leave. I just don't know what to think about all of this. Harry you confuse me! I don't know what to think when I'm with you. You don't even like me." I say with a tear dropping down my face. Why do I do this. I look weak as I always cry in front of him. I really like him. I-I love him.
Harry's PoV.
I grab a glass and through it against the wall. As a man starts to talk about Aria. "Are you gonna fuck that bird or what Harry? If not I will. Are you catching feelings for her Harry? Mr player himself getting whipped by a fucking depressed chick. As soon as you sleep with her you ain't gonna like her. You just like the thrill of being with a virgin. She's a depressed slut if she likes you because she knows your past. She wants attention that's all. Give me her number so I can sleep with her and seal the deal." He whispers so only I can hear him. Fuck this shit! I grab the man by his collar and throw him to the ground. I punch him and I get a thrill out of it. My anger is building and I want to kill him. I keep punching him and everyone crowds around me so I carry on. I see Louis in the corner of my eye ringing someone. Who would he be ringing. I stop thinking and pin the man to the floor and look at his bloody face. I lean into him and whisper in a sharp tone,"see how easily I could end your life!" As I say this the man upper cuts me which gives him the chance to roll me over and climb on top of me and hit me. I start to think of this dirt bag man touching Aria and my anger builds up again. I manage to roll him onto he's back and make him stay there. Just as I am about to hit him a hand touches my back. As I turn around to have a go at this obnoxious person I see its Aria. Straight away I climb off of the man and drag her away from the view. What the hell is she doing here. Reading my thoughts Aria answers,"Louis invited me,he sounded worried." She says with worry. I down half the bottle of whiskey that sits in my view. I haven't drank for 2months and the only reason I've started again was because of how much of I dick I am. I start to throw hateful words at her because that's the only way I know how to handle my pain. I had this fight for her. Igor wasted because of her. There's something about her that makes me like her. "I love you Harry and I don't know why." Aria says with blushed chicks with tears in her eyes. She loves me? Why would anyone love me? I've been nothing but horrible to her and she says she loves me. "I need you, I-I like you!" I explain as she tries to leave. Way to go Harry. Why would I even say that I don't need her I'm fine by myself but I just want comfort. I stay round Aria's that night and wake up with no one in the room. I have never stayed in a girls room I always make them leave or we simply just have sex anywhere. Such as; public bathrooms and such. Also I have never let a girl into my house or even let them meet my family. I've never fell in love and I will never. I break hearts. I'm good by myself and that's how I'm gonna stay. I walk out of the dorm room and and wait outside until Aria comes back. She looks right through me and I grab her arm and pull her into my chest as I just want to be able to feel the way I make her heart race and the way I know how I can make her feel. what did I do? Last night is a blur. All I remember was kicking someone ass in a fight. The man I had a fight with wants to sleep with Aria just to humiliate her. After Aria tells me the awful things I said last night an overwhelming cloud of guilt hovers over me. I say sorry and she asks me to leave. I leave without putting up a fight. I realise when I climb in my car she is leaving to go to Ireland for Christmas.
Aria's pov
As we arrive at the airport and go to sign in for our flight the lady at the desk denies our tickets. What I called up and booked them? We leave and I ring my dad to tell him I won't be able to come for Christmas but her doesn't answer. I put on my pjs when I get in as I'm spending another Christmas alone. 4 hours later there is a bang on the door. So I hurry over to it and get ready to shout at the person for waking me up then I realise it's my father. How is he here? He has barley any money. My mum must of paid. He wraps is arms around me and pulls me into a tight hug whilst kissing me on the cheek. "Darling! How are you?" He asks. "I'm fine Thankyou. This is Jade. How did you even pay for the flight ticket?" I ask hoping he'll answer. "Hi Jade and well I know a few people so I got a plane here to spend a couple of days with you." He smiles. Ask I put on my right black dress from lipsy I add more makeup on and put some flat shoes on so I can take my father sight seeing on Christmas Eve. As I take him around London I show him a restraint called nandos and take him there. This is were me and Harry had our friend date and he turn't up with ladies perfume on him. Dad asks me questions about me and Harry and I barley answer I just nod and shake my head. After we go back to mine and put up the tree and k put my pjs on and my dad does and even Jade does. She covers her arms as she doesn't want my dad to see the in forgiving scars on her arms. I call them the scars of the past. We watch a film as we fall asleep.