the dreams changed it all

why me

I cant belived what happend best dream I have ever had after I woke up I whent to the bath room to get ready for work but I called in sick when I saw the disaster in my boxrs.oh God I thoght it was like it really happend like watching porn in your head why your asleep .after I jumped in the shower I desided to go to work anyway she was there when I saw her I got so embarrassed not just because of the dream but when I realized I would be standing five feet from her all day I worked at the hot topic at the local mall that not so local more like two hour drive but still it was fun payed good and I was able to meet people like me and see her .there one problem to me wanting her is she still in high school she is in the 10 grade she is sixteen and I'm 21 well lets say 22 my bday is two months away .but my granparents are 11 years apart so what the big dill pickal well I'm a adult she is a child I could go to jail that and pulse her family is super religious and I don't Wont to mess that up for her they all ready hate that she works here but that's the only place thAt would hire her because she not the well how can I say this it takes her more time to catch stuff that she may need like how to cook or what ever but she good with people she acts shy but when she is at work she like a rocket she can sale just about anything and I my self can ring up just about anything and I'm very good with latest styles and what merch belongs to who or what fandoms we have and I m very good at when we dont have a fandom finding something in the store that goes with it with out it Bing laget that fandom but it works and it works good but back to the hole her family is religious so is mine but you know I have my own house I have my own care and I told them when I was her age so they now its not just a faze that it real I cant mess her life up like that .

I got there right as my boss was showing up and he was very seprised lol and thin I told him it was a fouls alarm that I didnt have the flu just runny and stuffy nose for the temp changing .

but back to me and her standing at the regester she looks at me
hey why are you so red is it because of my outfit I know its revling and all but I'm tring to dress like me and not church girl I'm sick of all of it I Wont to be the real me .she said
oh no its fine you look wonderful and your shoes are amazing .I said
hey after this shift do you Wont to go get lunch with me
I really don't have the money the gas to get up here coust me a to much maby another time
the real reson was becusr I was to emberased
oh no don't worry about it I'll pay for it
I cant let you do that for me
its fine let me
I Wont fill right if we stop by a ATM I 'll got some money to pay for has and the both of use to eat
ok shere
I have the idea she not going to let me pay now I don't Wont her to think I'm broke
I dont get a thoused a moth for Nun see my ex husband he pays for child support and alimony
yes ex husband that was before I found out I liked just girls (i all ways thought I was bi) we where only married for a 2 years I was 19 dumb he was 34 when we got engaged I thought I was in love nope just in love with the idea I used to watch his youtube video's so it was like a fan love or what ever
that's intel he got me nocked up the first time we had sex so we never had a relationship it was all about the baby there was no we it was is three woich was good I destracted me from think how gross men where but when the baby ternd 2 that when I told him and lets just say he bet the shit out of me he almost whent to jail and we got devorese in the devotee I got all his money and half of the money he makes a month the your story mantion of his with700 acers of land and every thing ealse you can think of but he was a youtuber and actor he was rolling in money but to evoied the story Bing public and he was willing to so what e we it takes and he does and its not like he strugals he moved to Beverly hill's lives in new mansion owns92 cars and three cabens in italy and Alaska so I shere he not missing the money