Cassie Black (Sirius Black Sister)

Amends with him?

When I was younger friendship was all I had even wanted but now I have it. It doesn't seem real enough for me.

The rest of term went by quickly after I had spoken to Lily and said Sorry for my actions. I still wasn't speaking to my brother or any of my family. I hadn't given them a single thought for the rest of term until the list for Christmas was published. The list to stay in school for Christmas. It hit me that I couldn't go home this Christmas unless I wanted to face my mother and what was to come when I did return home. I decided one night to write my name upon that board in my curving handwriting Cassiopeia Black. I didn't speak with the rest of my dorm mates about my Christmas plans as they all spoke quite excited about what they were getting and how happy they were to see parents and siblings and even pets. Christmas was the talk of the school for weeks as people got last minute presents and completed homework. For me life went on as normal only the nagging feeling of loneliness was still there in the back of my mind as it had been all term but this time bigger.

Two days before the end of term I had heard enough about the Christmas plans of my fellow first years. We were sat in the common room late on a Wednesday evening playing exploding snap when it happened. Frank was speaking about what was going to happen at his house at Christmas when I got up and threw my cards done causing the explosion to happen silencing the common room. "For goodness sake will you all shut up about Christmas and the horrors of your family at least you have a home to go to." With that I stormed out of the room leaving a trail of shocked faces behind me. I ran threw the building into a quiet corner of the castle and sobbed. I knew I had a long time before anybody found me as they would all be going to dinner soon anyway. I hadn't heard anyone come down the corridor but I felt them pull me towards them holding me tight and letting me sob onto their shoulders.

After a long period of time I heard the hushed tones some people standing pretty close to me and the person that was holding me tightly. I couldn't quite make it out but I heard the words Padfoot and someone hitting someone else. I pulled away sharply and stared at the person it was my brother. He looked at me with sad eyes as I saw the tear tracks on his face too. I pulled him into a hug more for myself really and just had a breakdown muttering the words sorry over and over again.

When I came to a coherent state I realised I had been moved and I was on a bed in a room just like my own but it wasn't my bed. The room that I was in my a state like a bomb had gone off state. Someone sat next to me and grabbed my chin causing my face to be pulled towards them. My brother stared me straight in the eye and smiled weakly at me. "Listen Cassie, I don't want you staying here for Christmas by your self so I spoke to Mr and Mrs Potter and you are coming home with me this year." I tried to protest but I knew that it was no good my brother was persuasive when he wanted to be. I sighed deeply "But I've already written my name down." I stuttered badly. He smiled and said "I know but I spoke to Minnie about it and your names been removed." I nodded sleepily at him and pulled him towards me as I fell asleep on his shoulder. Before I drifted into the land of sleep I heard a faint "I love you Cassie." I whispered back "Love you too Siri."