Cassie Black (Sirius Black Sister)

Her Son?

Just to warn you all that this chapter is going to be quite emotional, for the characters anyway. enjoys :).

I felt my body and mind becoming in time with the music as the routines went on, they transferred between each of the routines making me feel like everything that I ever needed was right here in this house. I never ever wanted to leave this moment as it was to perfect, the silence in the house and my family surrounding me. Sirius being at peace with himself and the bright smile that was etched on his face seemed permanent. I knew that it was too good to be true as when I awoke the next day I felt empty inside like I was missing the only thing I needed. The emptiness of my body was not going away as I walked down the stairs to see Masie sat in the kitchen sadness filling all of her features and then I remembered.

Today was the 31st of July, the day that we lost the most important piece of our lives. Ten years ago today I had two children a girl and a boy. Today I lost one of my children leaving me with one. Today Masie lost Josh her brother. I knew why Max didn't come home last night as he knew that today was going to be hard for us all and we weren't going to be able to function correctly. The pain of losing a child never goes away, the empty feeling that you once loved one of them but they weren't here anymore. The time that Josh was alive was precious to us all as he lived the happiest time he ever could.

I felt the tears stream down my cheeks as I remembered the pain that I was feeling, the raw emotion taking place on my face. I fell to the floor screaming out in pain, I heard Masie shout for me to breath as I started to hyperventilate on the floor. Memories flooded my brain as I heard the screech of the tires against the floor and my little boy screaming out my name as he was caught under the wheel of the truck that hadn't seen me on the footpath. Sometime being a wizard is painful because you know that you could have saved him but the guilt that comes with being unable to is heart-breaking. The numbness that I hadn't felt in a while had appeared and the noise around me became muffled. I knew that my body was trying to stop the feeling all over again. I felt someone shake my shoulders and they were screaming my name over and over again. I passed out as soon as I made eye contact with the man in front on me.

As I came to, the blur of shapes came around me knowing that I would have to explain to them what had happened made me feel nauseas. I opened my eyes and sat up to take in my surroundings which were unfamiliar to me. I was in a hospital bed surrounded by many worried faces, one of these was my daughter and my brother. The others were vaguely familiar to me but I couldn't quite place them. "Mama?" My little girl sounded broken, knowing that you had caused that, made my heart break all over again. "Baby?" I replied, noticing that I sounded as broken as she did. The tears were already rolling as she launched herself into me. I heard the footsteps and the shout of my husband in the room as he hugged my other side. He was whispering in my ear letting me calm down slowly.

I pulled myself back from my family and pulled my brother into a hug, the worried look on his face showed that he had taken me here to be looked after. "Sorry," I croaked out. He looked at me straight in the eyes and spoke deeply. "For what Cass, for showing emotion, you said that it wasn't a weakness." I chuckled weakly at him repeating my works back to me. "I know Cass about Josh." The tears streaming down my cheeks and his. I just sat there in his arms crying for so long that I cried myself to sleep. Even though I was ever told I could show emotion as I child I knew that Sirius was the one to go to as he was the best person to understand. Having him hold me in his arms again reminded me of the sleepless nights that we had when we were small and the pain he went through for me.

After a while of sitting together silently and I had finished my nap I looked him straight in the eyes and thanked him. He smiled at me and said 'well what would I be if I didn't do this for my little sister.' The statement set me off again remembering that Masie would never be able to have this connection with her brother as he was gone forever. This time I cried for a minute and pulled myself together grabbing his hand I pushed myself out of bed. The Medi witch smiled at me as I sent my brother away to find my family. I started talking to her quietly as she told me that he had taken me to Hogwarts and that he was so worried about me that he had to be given a calming drought as he was so panicked my state. I told her all about my little boy and how big he was getting and all of his hopes and dreams which were taken away when that drunk truck driver mounted the curb and took my boy away from me forever. I told her about the pain I went through with the court case that finally ended and the fact that I had to live with the pain that I couldn't do anything for him.

The women told me off for blaming myself and told me that Masie was what should be focused on as I should be strong for her. Masie came running through the hospital wing doors with my brother chasing her pretending to be the tickle monster. The sadness was still present in her eyes but Sirius was saving her from becoming the sadness which is something that was needed as me and Max both held the pain. Max came in after them walking slowly tears unshed in his eyes, I ran towards him letting him engulf himself into me. I let him cry into me until we were on the floor with him sobbing, every year he held me without any problem but this year it was my turn to protect him from the world outside.

After the breakdowns had happened we met the professors of Hogwarts and became good friends with them. Masie had fallen asleep curled up in a chair that was present in the private quarters of Minerva or Minnie as Sirius has called her fondly. She slapped him on the head for that comment but I knew that she meant it with love. She was excellent with him treating him like her own which made him comfortable and at ease. After a while he dowsed off leaving just me and Max talking with her when I commented on how she was with him. She laughed shortly and said that she was his head of house and that she always knew that every was never okay with him. I smiled weakly asking what she knew. I told her of our childhood and the horrific times he had at home with my mother and father, the most shocking part of her reactions were of the way she closed her eyes and the sadness that was etched there was terrible. I knew that she truly cared for him and always had done.

After a while I stretch was sore muscles and stated that we must leave. Max took Masie in his arms and Flooed home with her still asleep. I had the hard job of waking up Sirius so he was coherent enough to floo back home alone, which was going to take some time. After he was gone it was just me left, bidding a farewell to her I turned to walk to the fireplace. "Cassiopeia Black," She said suddenly, "That's why I have been thinking I have known you all day, you were in my house for that short time before you moved away." I smiled softly and nodded, she hugged me fiercely and made me promise that I would visit and to look after her little lion who was as fragile as I was.

Stumbling into the house I was emotionally drained as I saw my house elf Pixie stood waiting for me. "Mistress is sad," She said in such a way that I had forgotten that she had dealt with me before. "Mistress needs to go to bed." She took me to my room and to bed where Max joined me forcing me to sleep for the longest time I had ever had.