Hello Internet friend

Hey, guys I updated.

It's two weeks until Homecoming and I'm walking the halls with Brian's hand latched on to mine. I haven't even tried to give Colin a second chance, you can't love two people at the same time. I would say love does not exist but 'love' is the epitome of disaster. Brian is giddy to be with me and yes I've grown to him but I don't feel the spark.

Every time I see, hear anything that involves Natalie hurts me. I find myself clenching my teeth every 4th period because she still manages to dangle her perfect little pony tail in front my face.

Colin attempted to talk to me at lunch but all I did was stare. I can't even look at him without picturing Natalie. I may be over looking this but I loved Colin, I love Colin. If I take him back knowing that he doesn't love me then I will only be living a lie.

I am walking to my 4th period and I see Natalie frantically run into the girls bathroom. Of course I run after her because I wanted to see what was going on..I know I'm nosy but I couldn't help it. As I walked in, I heard weeping, she was face first into her knees while her big pony tail covered her face. She was wearing a burgundy dress that flown across the tile floor like silk, big bracelets dangled around wrists with little charms hanging off each one. I got a little closer to her, so close our knees touched and yet as subtle as I was she wiped her face and looked up slowly, almost terrified of what was above.
Sympathetically I asked if she was okay but all she did was bury her face into her arms. I tried to understand so I caressed her arm and gave her a hug. She lifted from her position and finally talked to me.

I was out at a party and some guys were hitting on me and I told them to please leave me alone but they wouldn't stop following me Faith. One of them tried grabbing me but I pushed them off, while I was dancing someone must've slipped something in my drink because the next time I woke up, I was naked in the up stairs bed and I haven't told anyone and I feel so vulnerable. I can't.

She tried to maintain a straight face but she gushed out in tears before she finished her sentence and I just held her close but I didn't say anything. The next moment she was holding my face and we locked lips. I heard someone open the bathroom door but it quickly closed and I pushed Natalie off and just ran out of there.

She can't just go around kissing everyone?!

I couldn't stop thinking about what happened in the bathroom and I didn't know who to tell. What if that was what happened with Colin..maybe that kiss really wasn't his fault. I feel so embarrassed and shameful. I don't know what she was thinking, I know she's in harsh times but you don't just kiss someone.
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____________Authors Note!_____________

It's legit been like 3 months since I updated and I'm so sorry. It's been so hard writing for me and I don't know why. It's 3am and I felt like writing so yeah..HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY.

Shout out to ThatsMyChoco for adding me to"waiting for update" reading list 😂💕