Lost Without A Map

Chapter 3

June 11th, 2003

Well, I found a pretty nice motel after a few miles and I decided to stay. It felt so good to stand in the burning hot shower. My skin was bright red when I got out. I ate so much food when I arrived I thought I was going to be sick. I'm laying in bed writing this right now. I'm trying not to fall asleep but it's not working. I will write more tomorrow.

June 12th, 2003

I have never slept that much in my entire life! I feel so great today. I just showered again and put on some clean clothes and cleaned my dirty ones in the sink. It isn't my favorite way to do things but I really do love being on my own. Not because I don't like people controlling me or telling me what to do, but I'm always so scared to disappoint other people. When I'm alone I have no one to disappoint. 

I'm not sure what my plans are at this point which makes me a little nervous. I don't even know the name of the town I am in right now. I think I will stay one more night and then leave. I am not ready to go back to sleeping on the groud after sleeping in a bed with sheets and blankets. I don't even know what I am going to do today. I feel like I should be preparing my future in some way but I don't know how I'm supposed to that. I guess I will go into town and try and find a computer somewhere. I will write more later.

June 13th, 2003

I woke up much earlier today than I did yesterday. I found a computer yesterday and found that I am in a town called Lark Village. I am much farther from home than I thought. I still have no idea where I will stay. I need to make myself a new identity but I dont know how to do that. I guess I will cross that bridge when I get to it. I packed up my stuff  again and I'm sitting here trying to get motivation to leave. I'm so comfortable here but I know I can't stay. I feel like I've been gone for months, but it hasn't even been two weeks.

I need to put this diary back in my bag and hit the road. Should I call William to tell him that I'm safe? Could the call be traced? I do not want my parents to find me. I think they would kill me. Literally. In the movies they use payphones, right? I can't help but wonder if new technology these days could still find me. I think I might write him a letter and mail it right before I leave so I can be as far away as possible when he receives it. I pray to God that he doesnt tell my parents that I contacted him. Ok, time to write him that letter. 

June 14th, 2003

I sent the letter last night before I left. I walked all night and most of the day today and so I think I will find somewhere to sleep for awhile and then walk more. I bought a map before I left and so now I have at least a small bit of direction. Although this might sound stupid, I see this small town on the map and I love the name, so I'm going to go there and see if I like it. I still have a long way to walk but I have all the time in the world. I think it might take me a couple more days or even a week. I might not be able to write tomorrow because I'm trying to cover as many miles as possible over the next couple days. The good news is that now I have hope of a destination.