Merry Christmas (ON HOLD)

Pressure

Hazel POV

I didn't mean to slam the door in his face. I knew I must of hurt him and that's not what I intended to do. But when he told me he was in love with me I just couldn't take the pressure. I just had sex with Marcus and I was developing feelings for him. Chris was with Natalie and they've been together for a year. Now he's telling me this.

I'm positive this wasn't how he was feeling over night. That's why he always said I was his and the reason why he kissed me. I loved Chris I do but I don't know. I'm just confused as hell right now.

I sat with my back against the front door and started crying. All the emotions were just spilling out of me.
I stopped when my mom opened the door forcing me to move.

"Hazel? Haze baby what's wrong?" She asked me bending down to my level. She dropped her bags on the floor and held me.

"Chris just told me he was in love with me." I said wiping my eyes.

"So why are you upset?" She chuckled. This isn't funny mom.

I gave her a stern look. "I'm starting to date someone else and I'm developing feelings for him. Chris has Nat and Marcus wants to make things official with me." I told her as she took it all in.

"Don't cry baby you have to follow what your heart tells you in these situations. Don't think to much about it. If you and Chris are supposed to be together it will happen." She said helping me up of the floor.

"It's just very stressing." She gave me a hug and kissed my forehead.

"Things will fall into place don't worry. But how do you feel about Chris?" She asked me walking into the kitchen.

"I really don't know. Yeah I love him he's been my best friend since forever. I don't know if I'm in love though. Sometimes I just think I feel this way because it only seems right. It's like an expectation, we've been friends so long it's like why aren't we dating? You know what I mean?" I told her sitting on the kitchen counter.

"Yeah I get you. Like I said things will fall into place just relax. You want some sugar cookies? I just got em from the bakery." She asked me and pushed the box next to me on the counter.

"Thanks mom I love you." I said kissing her cheek stuffing the bite size cookie in my mouth.

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"Stop, stop it your so annoying!" I laughed pushing him off me.

"Why I like sitting on you. You're very comfortable." Marcus was at my house and we were supposed to be watching this movie on Netflix but he was being childish. We were on my bed while the movie played on my laptop.

"Well I'm not a chair." I said pushing him off me again.

"It's not fair that girls can sit on boys but we can't sit on y'all." He huffed and crossed his arms. I just rolled my eyes pausing the movie since he wasn't paying attention.

"You came here to watch a movie with me but you messing around." I told him. I really wasn't in the mood right now.

"You appeal to me more than Netflix. I want to cuddle and kiss you." He pushed me back on the bed hovering over me with his elbows keeping him up.

"You're cute. You know that?" I said pecking his lips.

"I know. But you're cuter." He said connecting our lips. He kissed me slow and passionately.

"Hey what was that?" I asked out of breathe and surprised at his actions. I then started to play with his short goatee.

"It's my way of telling you I love you. Because I do love you Haze." He said looking into my eyes.