Merry Christmas (ON HOLD)

Zero

Hazel POV

I woke up with the sun shining through the slightly open curtain. It was shining so brightly and I felt like dying. I open my eyes looking around to find myself in a familiar room. Not mine though. The walls had a light mint green color. Not mine, mine were white.

I was at Chloe's. How did I get here? Didn't I go home? I pick my head up from the pillow a little to quickly and my head is pounding. It was like a bunch of hammers were knocking at my skull. I sit up now running my hand through my curls.

I thought about getting up but I knew that would be a bad idea. My eyes travel around the room and there was no Chloe in sight. But I did see two big bottles of Ciroc, they were empty. I haven't had a hangover this bad since senior year, when I broke up with my boyfriend. Caught him kissing another girl on our prom night. I was a mess that night and so drunk after the party Chris had to take me home and take care of me.

I was scared by Chloe bursting into the room.The awful headache and her loud voice was making me cry inside.

"Hey baby girl! How you feeling?" She asks me handing me Advil and a glass of water.

"Horrible. What happened last night? My head is about to fall off." I take the glass of water and the pills popping them into my mouth. I gulp down the water, holding my head.

"Well we got back to my house, you were an emotional wreck so I decided a few drinks wouldn't hurt. But it made it worse, you sobbed more and started talking about how you wanted to chop off Marcus's dick. Then you cried even more talking about how you hurt Chris. So when I tried taking the bottles away you wouldn't let me and you drunk both of them by yourself." She sits next to me rubbing my back. She was really a great friend.

I started having flashbacks to what happened before we got to the house. I was heartbroken. Really. Although I wasn't in love with Marcus it still hurts to know you got cheated on. To feel that you weren't enough. I've experienced that to much in my life. But it's not even that he cheated on me, it's that it was with that bitch Natalie. She was a hoe and I'm glad she isn't with Chris anymore. Oh my god, Chris. He must be devastated. He thinks I don't love him and his girlfriend for a year cheats on him. That sucks it really does.

"Wait, my mom I have to call her! Where's my phone?" I start to panic. If she doesn't hear from me she'll go crazy. Chloe hands me my phone from the charger it was on.

"Calm down I texted her telling her you were with me and that you fell asleep." She pats my head and chuckles.

"Oh good. Thank you." I check my phone to see 12 missed calls from Marcus and probably about 15 text messages from him. I suck my teeth and read them. Chloe's nosey ass looks over my shoulder reading what I was reading.

Marcus:
Please Hazel let me explain.

Marcus:
I don't want to lose you. I'm sorry.

Marcus:
Pleaseeeeeee pick up. Please I need to talk to you. I'm sorry I can't believe I did what I did. I love you Hazel.

I roll my eyes at the last text. Who do you love? It can't be me if you did what you did.

"Don't text him back Haze. He should suffer. Hurting my best friend and shit." She says hugging me.

"I wasn't planning to." I laughed and kissed her cheek. I'm so glad to have this chick. Even though she's annoying at times.

It was a exactly a week away from Christmas and I can't even be in the Christmas spirit because of this bullshit.

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Chris POV

"Fuck off." I mumble laying in my bed. She keeps calling me. Leave me the fuck alone, because I'm pretty sure you weren't thinking about me when you were on Marcus's dick. It actually hurt that she didn't even try to run after me. She didn't cry, she didn't look sad, she just looked like, she was just there. It's like she didn't care that I caught her, but now she's calling me.

I get up out of my bed and look at my present to Haze unwrapped on my desk. I pick up the gold necklace. It was a locket actually. I rubbed my finger across the diamonds on the outside before opening it. My arms were wrapped around her waist from behind and I had her in the air. We were both smiling and happy. I missed that, she was so beautiful and I loved everything about her. On the left side of the locket was something I told the jeweler to engrave in it.

If I had the moment, id capture that moment. Where you would be right here next to me.

These were the lyrics to my song All Back. I wrote it my junior year when I found out Haze had a boyfriend and she never had time for me. It only lasted a year because he was scumbag but, in all honesty I was just jealous so I wrote this for her. She doesn't know it's for her but she heard it before.

I bought this locket so that no matter how far we are, she knows that I want to be next to her. I want to love her. Kiss her and embrace her. Hug and give her protection. She was the one I loved and I hated that she didn't love me back.

I pick up my phone again looking at dozens of missed calls from Natalie. I decided to text Hazel and see if she's all right. Just because she doesn't feel the same way doesn't mean she isn't my best friend.

Me:
Hey, are you all right?

About 5 minutes later she texts me back.

Hazel:
Hi, I'm ok hanging in there. Are you okay?

Me:
I mean I'm alive

Hazel:
Chris. I'm sorry about everything.

Chris:
Don't apologize. It's fine.

Hazel:
It's not though you must feel so unwanted and idk I wish I wasn't so confused right now.

Me:
Don't push yourself to love me. If you don't you don't.

Hazel:
I do love you Chris don't say that.

Me:
You know what I mean Haze.

She didn't text me back after that. Figures. I pulled out my headphones and played Zero from my "album".

I started singing the words.

Gave a hunnid percent and all I got from youuuu,

Zeroooo....zeroooo

I don't need Natalie in my life she was a waste of my time. I knew that from the beginning, but now I don't care anymore I give zero fucks.

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