Payzer's Daughter

Chapter 6 - {Warrior}

Song of the Chapter: Warrior by Demi Lovato

Alex's POV

When I got to dance I realized there was only 10 minutes left of class so I just sat there with my phone in my hands scrolling through Twitter. I decided to tweet something.

@AlexEPayne: Came late to dance!! Ooops! :P Anywho! Who wants me to post a video of me singing??

In a matter of minutes I got lots of responses!

@PayzerMyHearttt: @AlexEPayne OMG yes!!! I bet you have an amazing voice!

@FutureMrsPaynee99: @AlexEPayne Eww noo! You probably sound like a dog!

@PerrieForeverMalik: @AlexEPayne YESS!!! I bet you have a beautiful voice!!

@ArianaGrande: @AlexEPayne OH MY GOSH GURL YES!! YOU ARE THE BEST SINGER EVER!!

I laughed at my best friends crazyiness. I decided to tweet her back. She didnt have dance instead she had Free Period.

@AlexEPayne: @ArianaGrande Gurl stop joking! You are the one with the voice here!! xx

@ArianaGrande: @AlexEPayne Bullshit.

I laughed and heard the bell rang which meant it was time for lunch.

I loved lunch especially the lunch truck. I only eat once a day and thats at lunch. I usually get a salad, small sandwich and a bottle of water. When I got to outside cafeteria I saw Josh and Jake already there but there was a new guy there talking to them. 

"Hey guys!" I said. 

"Whats up LittlePayne!" said Jake. 

"Heey Alex!" said Josh. 

We stood there feeling awkward until Josh spoke up.  

"So this is our new friend Jai! Jai this is our bestie Alexandra but we call her Alex!"  

"Hey Jai!"  

"Hey Alex!" he said. 

"So where are you from?" I asked noticing he had a different accent than British or American. 

"I'm just moved here from Australia! Actually I have a brother named Luke but he stayed in Aussie!" he said. 

"Wow! Thats so cool! I wish I could go see Aussie some day!"  

I know what you're probably thinking "Hey but didnt you go with One Direction?" Nope. I stayed with my mom. So basically I've never been to Aussie :(

Ariana came late to lunch because she had to go talk to a teacher but when she met Jai they seemed to hit it off. Jai kept looking at her and she kept looking at him. Awe thats so cute! She deserves someone nice and charming.

I never had a boyfriend. My dad thinks I'm "too young". Whatever! The bell rang and now it's time for Acting. When I got there we're just basically learning techniques. All my classes were boring and now its time to go to my moms house. I said bye to my friends and got Jai's number.

No I dont like Jai , I just think he'll be a good friend and future boyfriend to Ariana. I got inside my car and began driving to my moms. I stopped at Starbucks and got a Mocha Frap. When I got home I realized not only my moms car was there but also my dads car. Weird I thought. I got out my car and walked to the front door. I opened it and saw not only my dad but the guys, Eleanor, Perrie and Scarlett on the couch. 

"……Hello" I said trying to break the silence.  

"Alex I think we need to talk." My dad said. I knew exactly what he meant. We were going to discuss yesterday's tantrum. Honestly I was scared. What if they hate me!? What if they think I'm psyco!? What if they're ashamed!?  

"We dont hate you! And no you're not a psyco nor are we ashamed." my mom said. Shit! I said that out loud!  

"Then why do we need to talk?" I asked.  

"Well, we need to know how you feel?" Zayn said. Wow this feel like some stupid therapy session. 

"I feel…… happy?" It sounded more like a question than a statement. 

"Are you sure Alex? We're all worried about you. But we want to know why? Why did you feel the need to self-harm?" asked my dad. Wow this sounded like an episode of Dr.Phil. 

"Honestly I just felt unloved. I felt like I was the person holding you back from following your dreams. Dad everytime you were on tour you only called once a week! I felt like you dont love me! Am I a mistake? Because everybody on Twitter says I'm the reason you and mom broke up! I always feel guilty! And with paparazzi always following us and taking pictures I always saw myself fat! And your stupid fans on Twitter are always saying I should go die, or that I'm a fatass!! I hate myself!" I finished and I realized that I'm crying. 

Mom and Dad were crying but then dad spoke up 

"Alexandra Elizabeth Payne! You are not a mistake. When you were born, it was the happiest moment of our life! You are not fat, you are pratically skin and bones! You are a beautiful girl and it hurts me to know you feel that way! I'm sorry I cant call you everyday or at least sent you a text but I promise that will change!" he pulled me into a hug and continued "I love you so much! You are talented and anybody will die to have your life! You are my #1 girl in life and nobody will change that! Those "fans" that talk shit about you aren't are real fans! Because only true Directioners dont hate you! Please stop! Please eat healthy! For us! Please, please, please!" My dad was crying so much. I can hear it in his voice how much it hurt him to know these things about his own daughter. 

"I promise daddy." Is all I said but those 3 words mean the world to him. 

We just sat there talking about our day when we realized it was already 11:00 PM.  

"Well we better get going!" said dad. Everybody, besides mom, got off the couch and made there way to the door. 

"Goodnight princess! I love you! Stay safe and I'll see you Sunday night. Bye Dani!" said my dad.  

"Bye Liam!" yelled my mom back.  

As soon as everybody left I went back to the living room and saw mom was in there watching a movie. 

"Hey Alex lets have a mother/daughter movie night! We watch movies, and I'll order chineese food!" my mom said happily. 

"Sure let me just go change into some pj's!" I asked. I looked in the mirror and I realized that maybe I need to gain some weight. I made my way downstairs to the kitchen and grabbed candy, popcorn and soda. When I got back to the living room there were showing Mean Girls. Yes! I love this movie! As I sat down my mother came down with her pj's and 2 blankets. 

"The chineese food will be here in 10 minutes" she said. I just nodded. My mother sat down next to me and gave me my One Direction blanket. I love this blanket! I had it ever since I was 4! We just sat there watching the movie when the door bell rang. My mom got up and got our food. She payed the guy and came back to the living room. She handed me my plate and it smelled delicious! When I finished eating I realized my mom was asleep, we were barely on our 3rd movie and I was already falling asleep too. I closed my eyes and fell into a deep sleep.

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