Payzer's Daughter

Chapter 3 - {Invisible}

Song of the Chapter: Invisible by Big Time Rush

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Alex's POV

I woke up and realized my iPod and headphones were no where to be found. I looked beside me and saw them in my nightstand. l decided to go downstairs to see what my dad and the boys were up too. As I was walking down the stairs I heard my dad crying. What happened?

"Daddy, why are you crying?" I said. Everyones head turned my direction and realized that everybody was also crying. 

Woah! Did somebody die? Thousands of thoughts ran through my head. What the hell is going on!?

"Alex can you please come over here? We need to talk." my dad said. 

I walked over there scared of what he was going to say. I sat down next to Louis and my dad. 

"So whats wrong? Why are you crying?" I asked. 

"Alex the reason I'm crying is because............of you." he said. 

I didn't know what to say. I started to tear up.  

"Wh-why" I asked while my voice was cracking. 

There was a long silence before he began speaking. 

"I went up to your room to talk but you were asleep. You looked cold so I grabbed a blanket and tucked you in. Afterwards I grabbed your iPod and headphones and put them on your nightstand, then I saw your bracelets and I thought they looked uncomfortable so I decided to take them off." 

Thats when it hit me.

He saw my scars.

"Dadd-" I was about to explain but he cut me off. 

"Why Alex!? Why would you do this to yourself!? You're ruining your body! You have the the perfect life!!" he said. He looked angry and sad at the same time. Thats when I lost it. I dont have a perfect life! I hate my life! 

"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN ' I HAVE THE PERFECT LIFE' I HATE MY LIFE! IMAGINE HAVING YOUR DAD ALWAYS ON TOUR! ALL THE FUCKING HATE I GET ON TWITTER!! ALL THE RUDE COMMENTS I GET AT SCHOOL!! I BET YOU HATE ME! I BET YOU SECRETLY WISH YOU NEVER HAD ME! I I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT MY LIFE! DO YOU KNOW THAT I STARVE MYSELF BECAUSE OF PEOPLE CONSTANTLY TELLING ME I'M FAT! I WISH I WAS DEAD!! FUCKING DEAD!! I HATE ALL OF YOU! I HATE EVERYTHING!!!"

I left angrily upstairs to my bedroom and layed down on my bed and got on my laptop and decided to log on Twitter.

Big mistake. (A/N: Sorry if these Twitter accounts are real. Remember this is a fanfiction)

@iLoveLiamJPayneee: @AlexEPayne You ugly fat ass! You were a big mistake! Go die! Nobody cares!

@1DLovvvver: @AlexEPayne I fucking hate you! Die in a hole you bastard!

@SmilerDirectioner12: @AlexEPayne Your fat! Lose the weight you ugly hippo!

@PayzerForever143: You are the reason your parents broke up! Ugh go die ugly bitch!

@ForeverZerrie: @AlexEPayne I love you gorgeous girl! Ignore the haters you are beautiful ♥

That was the only tweet that made me smile. I followed her and RT'ed her tweet. Am I seriously that ugly? I looked in the mirror and started crying. I decided to go to bed. I put on my headphone and got my iPod. I put in on shuffle and the first song that came on was Invisible by Big Time Rush.

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Do you ever wonder, when you listen to the thunder 

And your world just feels so small 

Put yourself on the line and time after time 

Keep feeling inside that they don't know you're alive 

Are you on the mind or just invisible 

But I won't let you fall 

I'll see you, through them all 

And I just wanna let you know 

Oh, when the lights go down in the city 

You'll be right there shining bright 

You're a star and the sky's the limit 

And I'll be right by your side 

Oh, you know, you're not invisible to me(Oh, you know) you're not gonna be invisible 

Do you ever think of, what you're standing at the brink of 

Feel like giving up, but you just can't walk away 

Night after night, always trying to decide 

Are you gonna speak out or get lost in the crowd 

Do you take a chance or stay invisible? 

But I won't let you fall 

I'll see you, through them all 

And I just wanna let you know 

Oh, when the lights go down in the city 

You'll be right there, shining bright 

You're a star and the sky's the limit 

And I'll be right by your side 

Oh, you know, you're not invisible to me 

Oh, you know, you're not gonna be invisible 

Gotta look far, I'll be where you are 

I wish you could see what I see 

So don't ask why, just look inside 

Baby it's all you need 

And I don't understand why you won't (you won't) 

Take my hand and go 

Cause you're so beautiful 

And every time that 

Oh, when the lights go down in the city 

You'll be right there shining bright 

You're a star and the sky's the limit 

And I'll be right by your side 

Oh, you know, you're not invisible to me(Oh, you know) you're not gonna be invisible 

Oh, when the lights go down in the city 

You'll be right there shining bright (shining bright) 

You're a star and the sky's the limit (Sky's the limit, yeah) 

And I'll be right by your side 

Oh, you know, you're not invisible to me(Oh, you know) you're not gonna be invisible

And then I fell into a deep sleep dreaming about a different life. A perfect life.

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A/N: I'm in love with this song!!

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xo ~ Victoria

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