The Stars // Yoandri Cabrera

12 | Without You

Chapter Twelve

Yoandri's POV

"Hey, Patricia. What's up?"

Patricia snorts and asks, "What do you want Yoandri?" I sigh and sniffle, "Wanna hang out? I'm sorry about before." She stays quiet but then laughs, "No. You belong with that girl you were with."

In my room its more empty without her, it's less bright, less happy.

I feel tears prick my eyes and whisper, "She didn't see it that way." Patricia stays quiet and finally says, "Make her see it that way."

After she hangs up, I get up and rub my eyes, rubbing my hands through my hair right after. I sigh and grab my coat and my box of tissues.

I look at myself in the mirror and sigh, "Alright, let's go." I grab my keys and run down the stairs. My mom stops me but then sighs and turns away, "I didn't see you leave."

I smile and kiss her cheek before leaving.

***

I take a deep breath and look at the door in front of me.

Her door.

I sigh and close my eyes, "You got this, Yoandri. Breathe." I keep trying to build the courage to ring the doorbell and it's only when I hear a familiar laugh that I open my eyes.

Joel stops laughing when his eyes snap up to my face and my breath leaves me. I look as Angelia comes up behind him, "You're still here? Real-" her eyes meet mine.

My eyes sting as I open my mouth only to close it. Joel tries to reach out to me but I shake my head, "Are you serious?" I bite my lip to keep from breaking down and Angelia whispers, "Yoandri it's not what it looks like."

I laugh humorlessly and a tear rolls down my cheek, "You bitch. You fucking-" I take a deep breath and run my hands through my hair, looking right into Angelia's eyes, "You fucking played me."

Joel touches my shoulder but I snap my eyes to his face and pull my shoulder away, "And you! You promised you wouldn't do it again." Joel winces and says, "It's not what it looks like, we were just talking-"

I shake my head and wipe my eyes, tucking my hands into my coat pockets, "You're my cousin. You were supposed to look out for me." Angelia touches his shoulder and they pass a message between themselves.

I feel my face contort in disgust and whisper, "You're so manipulative. You're such a bitch. You're always so sarcastic and snappy. I should've known better."

Angelia's eyes fill with tears and they fall rapidly. "You won't let me talk." I scoff, "I don't need to let you talk. I've seen enough."

I feel my vision blur and stumble back, turning around to my car. "Yoandri, don't leave." I snort and turn back around to her, "You fucked me over. Are you content?"

Angelia grimaces at my words and I whisper, "Are you?" She walks up to me and murmurs, "I didn't want to hurt you." Her tears make her speech short, clipped, and hard to hear.

I gaze at her face and shake my head, "And what really fucking sucks is that I still like you." I give her a bitter smile, "But I'll get over it. With time."

She touches my wrist and I pull her away, "Don't touch me. I'm fine without you." Joel comes up to us and pulls her away from me, "No. No don't leave. Yoandri please."

I walk away as she gives up pulling and Joel wraps her into a hug.

I hate them.

I hate him.

I hate her.

***

When I get home I throw away anything that reminded me of her. She didn't deserve to be forgiven, to be remembered.

I glare at the wall and anger courses through me, "WHY?!" I scream until I can't hear my voice and after that I start throwing things.

"I hate this," I rasp out.

And that night I grab my jacket and go back to my old ways. Lillian picks up on the first ring and I smirk, "Wanna open the door?"

I hear her breathing pick up and I chuckle lowly. "Of course," she answers quickly. Finally, the door opens and she pushes me up against the wall.

The first thing that comes across my mind when she kisses me is that I did not miss her lips.

But the girl whose lips I wanted on mine played me.

But I would rather be played by her or not at all.

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a/n

This chapter made me sad. I'm sorry for the distress I'm causing.