The Stars // Yoandri Cabrera

15 | Kiss Me

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Because your comments give me life and I love y'all.

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Chapter Fifteen

Yoandri's POV

"Hello, Irene."

My mother doesn't turn around and mutters, "Take her up to your room and get it over with." Angelia laughs and says, "It's Angelia." My mom turns around with a big smile on her face, "Oh, Angelia. I've missed you so much."

She hugs Angelia tightly and they both talk animatedly. Mom looks towards me and whispers something in her ear. Angelia frowns and concern flashes in her eyes.

"Really?"

My mom nods and I go up to my room, grabbing Angelia's backpack on the way. Once in my room, I go inside the bathroom, knowing that my mom told her.

Told her something I didn't want her to know.

I splash cold water on my face and look up, water dripping from my chin, eyelashes, and small tendrils of hair. I lick my lips and dry my face, walking out of the bathroom. Angelia sits on my bed with a look of distraught and I sit down next to her.

We stay silent until she finally looks up at me with those beautiful turquoise eyes and asks, "Why didn't you tell me?" I sigh and get up, "You don't understand."

She glares at me, "Don't understand what? That you're fucking depressed?" I turn around and walk up to her, "Like you know anything about that!"

Angelia fists her hands, "I do. You'd think that that quote about the 30 day habit thing would work, right?" She laughs humorlessly and looks at me with fire in her eyes, "Well it doesn't! I still can't sleep without you by my side and it fucking sucks. I've been trying to see the lights without you and all I do is cry because guess what?"

I feel myself wanting to touch her, wipe the tears in her eyes away but she keeps going, "I feel so empty inside, I can't feel excited about something without wanting to tell you. Yoandri, trust me, I know more than you think."

Then just like that she is getting ready to leave. I snap out of my daze and grab out to touch her wrist, "Don't leave." My voice cracks and I look away to stop from my eyes tearing up. Angelia stops and sighs, "Why should I?"

I smile weakly and let my hands caress her jaw, my eyes traveling to her lips. "Because I need you." I feel my heart pang and whisper, "Let me be selfish for once. Let me feel your skin, your touch, your hair in my hands, your legs wrapped in mine."

Angelia looks up at me with watery eyes and I let out a breathy laugh, a single tear running down my cheek. "Let me hear your laugh, let me see your smile." I see her slowly nod and I hug her tightly.

I let out my tears, breaking down in her arms completely. She hugs me tightly, wiping my tears, kissing my forehead. Angelia takes off her coat and lifts her hair up in a bun before going back to comforting me.

"I'm so weak."

Angelia's hand wipes my eyes and she shakes her head, looking into my eyes deeply, "No you aren't. You've just been strong for too long."

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After my break down, Angelia made me laugh a lot, and held my hand the entire time. We played truth or dare and I won when she wouldn't tell me her darkest secret.

Angelia looks at her phone and frowns, "I'll be right back." I nod and say, "Take your time." I lay down on my bed and look at my own phone.

Stay away.

You'll break her again.

Don't get too close.

She's just gotten better.

Suddenly, Angelia bursts into the room fuming. I lean up and she avoids my gaze. "What's wrong?" She shakes her head and sits down on the bed.

I wrap her in a hug and say, "Tell me." She frowns but mumbles, "Joel told me to not get too close." I kiss her forehead and take a deep breath, "You should go home."

Angelia looks at me and I avoid her gaze, "Fine." She lets down her hair and slides into her coat, hopping into her shoes. We run down the stairs like little kids and for the first time I hear her giggle. I laugh at the beautiful sound and pick her up by her waist, spinning her around.

I laugh and she too laughs. I feel her smile and then we walk to the door, "BYE IRENE!" My mother smiles and looks up from the couch, "BYE HONEY. NEXT TIME STAY FOR DINNER!"

Angelia nods and I smile as she looks at me, "Goodnight." I kiss her cheek and mumble, "Goodnight, Angelia," in her ear. Her breath catches when I hug her tightly and she says, "I'll see you tomorrow."

I wait till she takes off and after about ten minutes she texts me that she got home safely. I smile and respond even though she can't hear me, "Good."

I lay down on the bed and look up at the ceiling, "Good."

The door to my room bursts open and Joel storms in. "What did I tell you?!" I get up and sigh, "Joel, calm down. What are you even talking about?" He rubs his face and takes a deep breath, "You kissed her on the cheek."

I frown and mutter, "It was a goodnight kiss." He snorts and plops down on my bean bag, "You still love her don't you?" I sigh and lean down on my bed, "Love is a big word."

Joel stays silent and mumbles, "But it explains your emotions perfectly doesn't it?" I feel my heart beat hard against my chest and think about her smile, her laugh, how she makes me feel and eventually whisper, "Yeah."

"I do."

Joel looks at me and I turn to his direction, "She's gonna have to choose." I frown and whisper, "Yeah." He groans and I let out a breathy laugh, "This relationship thing sucks."

I smirk at Joel and finally say, "Yeah." Joel gets up and jumps on stomach, "Promise we will be bros after this." I smile and hold out my pinkie.

Joel looks at my pinkie then back at my face, "Put yo damn pinkie down. A simple okay would've worked." I laugh and slide him off of me.

He walks to the door and turns around, hesitating but then saying, "Ignore all those texts I sent you besides the one about you breaking her."

I look up questioningly and he mutters, "You weren't there for the nights when she couldn't sleep, when she would whisper your name in her sleep, when she would cry until she fell asleep. It was painful, Yoli."

I stay silent and he continues, "Don't break her again. She's fragile, Yoandri." I nod and he nods back, sighs, and ultimately leaves the room.

I lay down on my bed and my mind reels back to what I may have just admitted.

"You still love her don't you?" I sigh and lean down on my bed, "Love is a big word."

Joel stays silent and mumbles, "But it explains your emotions perfectly doesn't it?" I feel my heart beat hard against my chest and think about her smile, her laugh, how she makes me feel and eventually whisper, "Yeah."

"I do."

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a/n

I Miss You by Beyoncé is fucking amazing.