New Girl

Chapter 6 The truth about Clary

A/N: enjoy and please vote and comment it would mean a lot. See you at the bottom!

Disclaimer: I don't own any characters just the plot, all stories about bullying go to either an inspiring story I read which was a fanfic (I think), Waterloo road or Demi Lovato's story, if you recognise any of the stories that are about the bullying they'll be from the above, and if you watch Waterloo road or know about Demi lovatos story then you'll know where I got it from. Though the ages are different, I think I'm not sure though.

Warning: language and acts of bullying in the story and mentions of self-harm

Clary's POV

When I got to school the next day, I met up with Simon and Maia and after a couple of lessons went by I had study hall. That was when I told them —and by them I mean Maia, Simon and Izzy since she had study hall too with us— about how I was sent to this school. So I told them the truth about me:

"It had been going on for a long time. I had put up with the bullying for years. I had a friend that would stick up for me and the bullies got suspended a lot. But every time it was the weekend they would come over to my house and taunt me, make me come outside pretend to be nice if they were in the playground if we went there and then, they would call me names, like 'fat' and 'ugly' and 'needs to lose weight' and apparently they sent a petition around the school, trying to get me out of the school because I was so ugly and fat. This was when I was 10 or 11."

"When I was about 12 they kept doing it, kept taunting me, someone one even called me a slut, since there were rumours going around."

"I tried to ignore it, I did my best to but then, I started to believe it, started to think I was fat and ugly, so I started cutting and purging, and everyday I hid it from my friends and family, just by putting on a smile."

"I was bulimic, I was self-harming, I couldn't stop until I was perfect, I even became anorexic, but it would still go on and on, I would get beat up and when my family asked what happened, I would lie and say I fell down the stairs.

"Then not long after my 15th birthday, I had enough, I didn't want to live in the world anymore, I thought everyone hated me and no one could see I was dying from the inside. The bullying had got to there was a website all about me and people could comment how ugly and fat I was and the website was about how disgusting I was and people said things like 'go die, you don't deserve to be in this world anymore, go kill yourself.' So I did — well I tried to at least.

"I took about 30 out of 50 tablets, I don't remember what tablets they were, I was going to take more but then I passed out on the bathroom floor, almost dead.

"When I woke up, I was in hospital, I didn't remember much all I remembered was taking tablets and then it went black. When I did find out what happened my mom and my brother, Sebastian, did everything they could to get me out of that school and into this one, at least then I'd know my brother would look after me.

"Ever since then I've been scared out of my wits thinking 'what if it happens again, what if I try to kill myself and it works, what then?' I was so scared when Aline called me all those things, so upset, because it reminded me of one of the people who bullied me at my old school, and I was scared since she was suspended it would start again. The taunting, the name calling, then before you know it, I'd be cutting, making myself bleed and tell myself I was worthless and then trying to commit suicide again just like that. I was scared I would lose, you guys my friends after one person said that after one day of school with you." I finally finished my story, and there were faces that were scared, shocked and worried. I looked back at them,

"So I'm guessing you don't want to be friend anymore? Well that's fine I guess I just never I'd thought I'd lose friends so-" I got cut off when someone said,

"We would never not want to be friends, I can't believe you've been through all this hon, you're so strong, you have no idea!" The person was Izzy, that's when she side-hugged me, since she was next to me, then Maia side-hugged me on the other side, I smiled and hugged them both back, then before I knew it, someone —Simon— was behind me, hugging all of us, I giggled a bit, before they all pulled away,

"I love you guys, thanks for sticking with me, you're the best!" I said.

"That's what friends do, they stick together, no matter what right?" Maia said,

"Right." I agreed.

"Do you ever hear from your old friends, didn't they stick up for you?" Izzy asked.

"They did as much as they could, but I don't hear from them, because by the time I was, self-harming and anorexic I thought everyone hated me, so I pushed all my friends away, I haven't seen them in ages I wasn't even hanging out with them the last months before I left." I explained, "it's almost 2 years I tried to kill myself." I said, "I can't believe I'm still here." I admitted, "I could've died at 15." My voice cracked.

"But you didn't, you survived because it proved that you deserve to be on this earth and you're here for a reason and the reason is not to try and get off the earth, okay?" Izzy said, I looked at her and nodded,

"Okay. Please don't tell Jace, not yet at least, I'm scared of what he'll think of me." I whispered. Izzy nodded.

"Of course I won't tell him until you're ready." Izzy said, hugging me again, I hugged back before I heard a voice behind me.

"Won't tell me what until you're ready Clary?" The voice asked, I pulled away and turned around and looked up to find Jace, standing behind us.

"Uh..." I said, not knowing what to say.

A/N: Hope you enjoyed! I have no idea how I wrote it, all I know is that I wrote what came into my head and that's what I always do! It means a lot that you guys keep reviewing and liking it and I hope this loves up to it. I'll try and keep updating everyday but if I don't, don't worry I'll write or I'll try to write double the amount of chapters if I miss days out!