Indelible Love (Danisnotonfire fan fiction)

I can't stop these feelings anymore

1 week later-

Dan was officially dating the Kaliyah girl which honestly confused me. I didn't know whether Dan liked me or not anymore. Maybe he stopped after I nearly got kidnapped and possibly could've gotten raped. I shivered at the thought.

I was still a single pringle since I still had a crush on Dan. Honestly, I have since before I moved to London but that was just a celebrity crush thing. Now, I know Dan in real life. Phil and I have become closer, constantly hanging out since Dan basically ditched us both for his girlfriend. Phil knows I like Dan and always pities me which makes me feel uncomfortable. I haven't seen Dan since last week. Sometimes, he texts or calls but I often ignore saying I'm busy. We've become detached unlike me and Phil. I found out that Kaliyah worked at the cafe Dan goes to often. She was pretty. Prettier than me. She was blonde, tan, tall, and over all gorgeous.

Dan invited me to meet her at the cafe today which I haven't responded to. I don't know what I should do. I decided that I needed to see Dan again and stop being a bitch so I responded with a yes and he texted me the time and address.

I got dressed in my Twenty One Pilots shirt, black skinny jeans and combat boots. I brushed my brown shoulder length hair and put on my sunglasses.

I decided to text Phil about it so he wouldn't worry that I wasn't at home. He had gotten protective ever since "that night".

I left the apartment building looking around the area. It was so sunny. I realized I hadn't left the building since last week. I sighed and kept walking. I looked around as I walked. The outside smelled like gas, smoke, and of course air. Which I could only describe as pollution.

I spotted the cafe in the corner of the block as my heart sped up a bit. I sighed and walked towards the door. I opened it being greeted by the smell of coffee and caramel. I looked around the tables trying to find Dan or Kaliyah. I spotted a brown fringe at one of the last tables and as I inched closer I saw he wasn't alone. Across from him was Kaliyah. I cleared my throat and walked towards the table, nervously. Kaliyah's eyes glanced up at me and I immediately noticed I didn't like her.

"Hi" I smiled at her. She gave me a sick grin and nodded. Bitch.

"You made it in time for the first time!" Dan joked looking at me. I turned to face him and my heart sped a bit...okay maybe a lot.

"Oh shut up" I nudged him, grinning. He got up and before I knew it, he engulfed me in a hug. He smelled nice. I missed his smell. It was weird but he smelled really good. Like faint deodorant and shampoo. He pulled away.

"This is Kaliyah, Em" he said, turning to Kaliyah. Her eyes flashed jealousy and I was sure it was because of the nickname Dan called me. "Kaliyah this is Ema" he added.

"Hi" she greeted, flipping her blonde hair. I wanted to roll my eyes but for Dan's sake I didn't. Dan sat down and patted the seat beside him. I was about to sit down but Kaliyah grasped my wrist, stopping me. I moved aside confused and she sat next to Dan.

I sat down across from them and smiled. "So, uh how have you been?" Dan asked me.

"Pretty good. Hanging out with Phil a lot. He's become very protective" I replied. Dan's eyes widened. I think he knew exactly why Phil was being protective but I didn't mention another word being uncomfortable talking about it.

"Oh. That's good" he croaked, awkwardly. An awkward silence followed and I looked out the window not knowing what else to do. Kaliyah had her hand intertwined with Dan's as she glared at me.  I glanced at her quickly and noticed she had had a short Aqua dress, lip gloss, curled her hair, and basically a lot of makeup. I wanted to cringe.

"Danny babe, when do we leave" Kaliyah whined. I scoffed and she glared at me. "What?" she spat, looking at me directly. Dan's expression changed to worry.

I shook my head, "Nothing". I crossed my arms and slumped further into the couch thing separating me from the couple.

"Um, we'll leave soon. I just wanted to catch up with Ema is all" Dan replied. We made eye contact and I couldn't help but stiffen. His soft eyes stared at me and I couldn't help but think of the last time he'd stared at me like that. It was probably when he asked me out but then Kaliyah came trailing. I broke eye contact, frowning.

" I-uh am doing fine. YouTube videos mainly and um started watching Sherlock recently" I said, lamely. Kaliyah looked at me oddly as Dan grinned at me.

"That's awesome. It's a great show" Dan replied.

I coughed a bit. "You?" I asked.

"Um, well not much. Kaliyah and YouTube" he answered, looking out the window. I looked down at their hands. Dan let go of her hand and I had a slight prediction it was my fault making me feel guilty. Did he still like me?

"I have to get going" I spoke up, giving the couple a fake smile. I got up and could feel my eyes started to burn as the tears were threatening to come down.

"Wait, Ema. Please" Dan now got up moving Kaliyah to the side so he could get through. I walked quicker, opening the door of the cafe.

"Ema!" Dan yelled, catching up with my pace.

"Shit" I cursed turning back around, "sorry" I apologized. Dan put his hands on my shoulders.

"What happened to you?" he asked, breathless. I turned my head to the side to not look at him directly.

"I don't know, Dan. I'll see you later" I replied, taking his hands off my shoulders. I walked away not looking back at the his startled expression. The tears now streamed as I approached my apartment. I jumbled with the keys trying to open it to get into the building.

"Fuck!" I yelled, throwing my keys in the ground, desperately. I slid down the door, crying. I let out a few breaths, closing my eyes. I pulled my knees to my chest, hugging myself. I missed him so much. I missed when we actually got along and there wasn't any other girl than me. I missed when we hung out on a day to day basis and didn't feel uncomfortable near each other. But now he had Kaliyah. Sweet, silly, gorgeous Kaliyah. I stayed in the position for nearly 20 minutes, sobbing. I didn't know why myself. I just cried and cried until it started getting dark. I didn't even know where my keys were.

"I knew I'd find you out here". I gasped and jumped slightly.

"Go away" I snapped, hiding my face. I heard a soft chuckle and keys jangle. He approached closer and opened the door for me.

"You can't stay here all night. It's getting dark. Get inside, Ema" he cautioned.

"Make me" I spat. There was a silent moment where he didn't move or say a word and I feared I had spoke a little too harshly. But before I could do anything, a pair of arms slid around me pulling me off the ground. I didn't stop him or argue. He opened the doors and led us up the flight of stairs, grunting once and a while. I wrapped my arms limply around his neck, burying my face into his chest. He stopped and fumbled a bit with the keys but managed to open the door and kick it open. He looked around before finding my bedroom. I squirmed as he set me down, kicking off my shoes.

"I'm sorry" he whispered, setting me down on my bed. I opened my eyes.

"Dan" I mumbled, looking up at the familiar face.

"That's my name" he joked, moving a loose strand of my hair behind my ear. My breathing hitched as his hand softly grazed my cheek as he did so. He looked down at me smiling, shyly.

"Goodnight, Ema" he said, softly and leaned back away from me. I smiled up at him, nervously.

"Goodnight, Dan" I replied as he departed from my room in a swift movement.