Indelible Love (Danisnotonfire fan fiction)

Not fireworks but so much more

I woke up and realized I was in my bed. Oh yeah, Dan had come yesterday. I got up and dragged my feet to the kitchen. My face still felt sticky and my eyes were glassy. I was crying. I grumbled and looked for my phone to text Phil.  I found it in the bottom of my purse I had taken to the cafe yesterday and texted Phil.

Ema: Hey, Phil. Can I come over rn?

He immediately answered, amazingly unlike Dan who never honestly replied to my texts in time or ever. 

Phil: Yeah sure but Dan's here

Ema: Crap. When is he leaving? Does he like have a date or something?

Phil: Ema he lives here. No, he doesn't have a date today or tomorrow. He said he's taking a break.

Ema: Fine. Do you want to go to brunch then? Where we can speak without him?

Phil: He already explained it to me. He found you outside crying. 

Ema: Yeah but still :/

Phil: Come on just come over and ignore Dan if you want. But I suggest you speak to him. He's being nice and he misses you.

Ema: He has Kaliyah

Phil: Not the same. He misses YOU.

Ema: Ugh fine. I'll be there.

I put my phone down and started getting ready. I still wore my Twenty One Pilots shirt but this time along with khaki shorts and a leather jacket. I washed my sticky face and applied a bit of concealer over my dark circles along with lip balm over my chapped lips. Sighing, I fixed my hair quickly and pulled my shirt up. I put on some Toms and left the flat, zipping my jacket up. I locked the door and walked over. Dan and Phil's apartment was very near mine. I just had to walk up ahead and I'd be at their door. 

"Crap" I cursed, looking down at the floor. I fidgeted, thinking. What if Dan opened the door? Did he know I was coming over? Are we still even friends?

I shook my thoughts and looked ahead. "I can do this. Just knock. Stop being a weirdo" I told myself, bringing my hand up. I clenched my hand into a fist and was about to knock on the door when it swayed open, revealing Phil's face.

"I heard you talking to yourself" he smirked. I sighed in relief, thankful it wasn't Dan at the door.

"Sorry about that" I replied, looking to the side. I hated eye contact.

"Come in. Did you eat yet?" Phil asked. I shook my head and entered into the familiar flat. I looked around. I noticed Dan's macbook on the couch. Dan never would leave his computer there. Always in his bedroom with him. Which could only mean he was up and somewhere around us.  

"Hey, um what cereal do you want?" Phil asked, looking at me. "You okay?" he added. I nodded.

"Any cereal is fine" I replied, my eyes still darting around the room. I think Phil noticed as he smiled at me.

"Dan's getting dressed. He's gonna be out soon" Phil stated. I nodded and sat on the couch.  I looked at the stickers on Dan's laptop counting them carefully out of boredom. I thought about him. 

"I have a lot of stickers. Kinda like a collection, I guess"

I jumped at his voice causing him to laugh. He moved over to the couch grabbing his laptop and sitting down. I noticed that he sat far from me on the other corner of the couch. Maybe he knew that I didn't feel comfortable with him anymore. I felt a bit of guilt. I looked down, embarrassed and decided to take out my phone. I went on to Tumblr and scrolled through the videos and pictures, smiling. I noticed Dan had reblogged a doge meme a few seconds ago.