Love Me! Unlove Me!

// 12 //

Luke forgot about my swollen eye already on the next day and everything was fine again.

It was Saturday and I was so up to party with whoever wanted to go out tonight.

I texted Lacey what she has planned this evening but first she was like nah I am going to spend the night with Mikey, so I texted Luke what he has planned for the evening and he said that the band had a gig tonight and Cal is there with them. They had some band rehearsals before but Calum was never on stage with them before.

I texted Lacey again and told her that our boys are having a gig tonight and that Mickey will spend the night with them. So she agreed to do something with me.

We went out together for some drinks at a bar that we used to go to if we easily wanted to get drunk. After a while Lacey became really drunk and started to ask question and told me about some weird stuff that's going on in school.

"Sydney, I need your advice for something. You have done this before probably a few times and I never have, but...I really wanna sleep with Michael." I looked at her shocked for a second. She is not one of those who easily opens up to other people or gets sexually in touch with someone.

"Isn't that going way too fast? I mean you are dating now for barely a week. You are not ready for this! You are my little baby girl I don't want you to do that. Why are you pushing yourself into that? I can see that you are not ready yet."

"But I can see and feel that Michael wants more. Every time Michael and I were alone and we started making out he puts his hand down my pants and he gets that look."

"What look?"

"A look full of lust and I never know what I should do 'cause I really like him but I am a virgin and I am scared. I mean I know that I can trust him and he would never hurt me or push me into this, but I wanna do it for him. I really like him."

"Oh my god Lacey tell him that you are not ready yet and that you want to wait or talk about it to him in general."

"Sydney I am scared he only dates me because of sex and I am scared that he will leave me soon."

"No he would never do that. We know the boys for too long, he wouldn't leave you."

"I am just really scared."

Lacey bursted out in tears so I took her in my arms.

"Everything will be fine, just tell him that you are not ready yet and that you wanna wait. He will understand it. And one day when you are ready for it, don't forget about condoms or better take the pill it's safer than anything."

Lacey calmed down a bit and wished away her tears, afterwards she went to the bathroom and remade her make up.

We went to the boys gig in that bar that was close to ours. They were right about to play their last song. Perfect timing.

As Lacey entered the room and Mikey saw her, he got such a big bright smile over his face that I knew he didn't do it because he wanted to have sex, no he wanted to show Lacey how much he loved her.

I took Lacey's hand to show her how happy Michael was that she came over.

The boys were smashing the stage while Lacey and I were dancing in the crowd.

As the gig was over, the spectators gave a big applause before all of them went either home or back to their tables with their beloved ones.
Michael went down the stairs from stage. His sweaty body hugged Lacey's who first shrugged back in disgust but then hugged him back tight. Both grinning all over their face.

Luke put his guitar in his guitar stand before he came down the stairs wrapped his arms around my waist and slipped his hands into the bags of my jeans that I was wearing, then he pushed me closer to him and kissed me.

"Hi" Luke said grinning at me when he disconnected our kiss. "Do you wanna stay the night with me again?"

"Maybe?" I countered in a friendly way.

"Maybe you are a little bit needy, aren't you? Or is it just that you enjoy my company?"

"I dunno. I guess we will see if you take me home with you, but let us have a drink first."

"Good idea I'll ask the others to join and you order a round of whatever you desire."

I ordered a round of Malibu-Orange for us, while Luke asked the others to take a seat at the big table that was empty. All of us sat together in a circle around the table. There was Mikey with Lacey, Luke and Ashton but no Calum.
"Hey where is Calum?" I wanted to know.
Everybody looked around not knowing where Calum is. Except Ashton who immediatly answered.
"He is sitting at the bartable with that girl he met, looks like he is going to have some fun tonight."
"Ah" I answered. "What do you mean with he will have some fun tonight?" I must have sounded stupid, really dump, like a child .
"Well to say it in a friendly way he will put his sausages in her bread, they are going to have sex, he will fuck her hard. Can't you see her look? Isn't it full of lust? She seems like every single moment she might jump on him and rip off his clothes. But I guess he is a virgin so he won't fuck her only if he is really hardcore. But to be honest I am not sure if he is a virgin or not. Sometimes I think that he could be easy to fuck."
Of course he is a virgin. What a question.
"Really nicely explained, Ashton! Thank you." I muttered. He can be lucky that he kissed a girl before. But why would he bother to wait to kiss her when he has already kissed me and maybe one or two other girls before?
It doesn't make sense anyway, so why thinking about stupid things like that. He wouldn't do that. He wouldn't just fuck any girl that is sitting around staring at him.
"Next round goes on me" Ashton suddenly shouts out loud and I shrug for a second.
An hour later the bar closed and we all ended up drunk as fuck.
"I-i m sorrrrreeey guyz butdt wheree is Cal?" I questioned again with a very drunk voice as we leave the bar.
"I dunno. And I don't wanna know 'cause I guess he left with that girl and I don't wanna know what they are doing right now." Ashton answered with that big smirk on his face.
Since when are Ashton and Calum such good friends? I remember Ashton making jokes of Calum the whole time because he was an outsider and now they spontaniously decided to become best friends for life? Seriously?
"No seriously where is Calum?" I asked this time with my best normal voice that I could offer right now.
"I saw him leaving with that girl half an hour ago." Michael answered calmly with Lacey in his arm who felt really comfortable and in save hands. Lacey had a big bright smile and held Mikeys arm.

How could I miss that Calum left without saying goodbye? Am I that drunk?
Suddenly Luke hugged me from behind and gave me a quick kiss on my head.
"Babe, let's get some rest. It's late we shouldn't be tired tomorrow. We have loads to do." I knew what he meant. It meant a long day and a short night for both of us...