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nineteen// chris

Sid's p.o.v.

After everyone went and talked to Chris, I decided to take Luna down with me.

We passed by many graves and my heart started to pound. Luna gripped my hand, which made me feel a lot better.

We made it to Chris's grave. I got down on one knee.

"Hey, Chris," I began. "We miss you, dude." I took a deep breath and looked back at Luna. She gave me the "keep going" look.

I looked back at the tombstone. "Chris, I miss you a lot. And I know it sounds selfish, but I want you back here." I felt my eyes water. "And I know for goddamn sure if you were still here you'd be more successful than any of us blokes." I blinked away some tears. "You and Jal would be happier than ever before, and you two would still be living together. And you would have made it to University. And you would of had a great job and a great life.." My words trailed off. I began to sob. "Chris, man. You would be proud of me. You always were. But I have this girl now. Well, we're not officially together, but, she's great. You would have loved her just like I do." I looked back at her, she was sobbing as well. "She's beautiful and I can be myself around her. You guys would have gotten along so well. And I would say a lot more but...you already know the rest. I love you dude. I miss you. And I hope you're proud of me," I stood up and wiped my nose on my sleeve. "Because I sure as hell am." I turned to Luna and practically collapsed in her arms and cried. She patted my back and held the back of my head. "It's okay, Sid, it's okay." She whispered repeatedly.

"I am gonna say a few things, alright?" She said and I got myself together and sniffed.
She sat down next to the tombstone. "Hi, Chris.  My name is Luna, Luna Finch. I'm the girl Sid talked about. I know, we've never met. But I'd like to think we would have been great friends." She looked up at me through her eyelashes. I nodded and covered my mouth with my hand. "And I have heard so much about you. You seemed like a cool guy, a free spirit." She took a deep breath. "You should be proud of Sid. He got laid this morning." I laughed a little through the pain. "But he also is very smart, and he's breaking out of his comfort zone. If I were you I'd be proud." She stood up and stood next to me. "It was nice meeting you, hopefully we will talk again soon. See you later." She finished. I hugged her so tight that I never wanted to let her go. We just stood there embracing eachother. But I knew damn well Chris was with us as well.