NICOTINE || Alex Ramos

Chapter 27

Song for this chapter: Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis

I stared at the envelope one last time before taking in a sharp breath and setting onto the table with everything else. "Dartmouth," I let the breath out. "Holy shit..."

Sarah's P.O.V
"Sarah, what the fuck is this?" I was scared out of my sleep as I was hit in the face multiple times with a piece of paper. "Alex, what the hell?" I sat up, smacking his hand away from me.

"When the fuck were you going to tell me?" He was pissed and the visible veins in his neck began to scare me. "I just read it last night, okay? You were sleeping, it's not a big deal." I tried to convince myself with the lie.

"Not a big deal? Not a fucking big deal? Sarah, this is across the God damn country. I didn't even know you wanted to go back to school, I didn't even know were applying for them!" He threw the acceptance letter at me and it landed it my lap.

"It was months ago, I completely forgot about it. Yes, I wanted to continue my education at the time but I didn't think I'd fucking get accepted anywhere, especially not Dartmouth for God's sake!"

"So are you going? Are you leaving? It says right here that you have to get back to them by-" he grabbed the paper from the bed and quickly scanned it, his voice quieted and he swallowed. "Tomorrow."

"I don't know, Alex I really don't. I didn't even know this letter existed until a few hours ago. I haven't even had time to think about what I want." I sighed.

"You're supposed to be my fucking girlfriend, you can't just leave." He clenched his jaw.

"I never said I wasn't your girlfriend and I never said if I was going or not."

"You might as well just go." His words were careless and painful. It felt like he just threw me to the side without a care.

"Alex, I-" "You were nothing but warm mouth and a pussy to me anyways." He cut me off but the the thing his words did was slice at every inch of me, leaving me to bleed out as I processed his words.

My face fell and I couldn't hold in the pain. The tears fell and my anger rose. I punched at his chest and he kept taking steps back from the force I was inflicting.

"You fucking prick! How could you even say something like that to me? A real boyfriend would be proud and congratulate me, not call me his personal fucking slut. I hate you, I honestly fucking hate you." I growled through my teeth.

I shuffled though his mess of a room and grabbed only the belongings that were visible to me before pushing my way past him and making my way out of his room. "Is this really how you want this to end?" My voice shook and he refused to acknowledge me. I shook my head and continued.

"Sarah, wait." He called after me. "What? What could you possibly want? My mouth or my pussy? That's all I ever was to you."

"Neither, bitch. You forgot your letter." His words were simple but they destroyed my insides.

I ripped it from his hands and continued to exit the room I hope I never end back up in. But hours passed and my phone wouldn't stop ringing, I eventually had to shut it off.

Alex's P.O.V
"You told her what? Are you fucking serious?" Lauren ran her hand down her face. "I can't get ahold of her, I need to apoligize. I gotta tell her the truth, I gotta tell her how I really feel." I sighed. "I fucked up." I admitted.

There was a long pause of silence and she hesitated before she spoke but I could tell that she meant each word.

"Just let her go, you had your chance."

Sarah's P.O.V
I sat at home and waited for a couple more hours to pass due to the time difference so that I could call Dartmouth. I was nervous about my final decision, but I was overwhelmed.

"I will connect you right now." The woman on the line spoke before she transferred my call. "This is Sarah, yes?" "Yes, this is she." I replied. "I'm looking over your file as we are speaking and we would be very honored to have you attend here. Have you thought about the offer?" "Yes, I have. I put a lot of deep thought into it. I couldn't thank you and your school enough, but-" She cut me off. "We understand, months pass and our applicants eventually find somewhere else by the time they get accepted." She was understanding and sincere. "You didn't let me finish...I'm accepting the offer." "I'm so sorry I cut you off, hun. I'm so glad to hear your positive decison. You will truly enjoy it here. How soon would you be available to begin your classes?" "As soon as you possibly want me to." I assured her. "Optimistic. That's a plus. Your flight leaves tomorrow morning at 5am. Is that appropriate or do you need a later flight?" "It's perfect. I'll see you tomorrow, thank you." "You will truly enjoy it here, I am very pleased with your decision."

I hope I am too.

A/N: Damn guys, that was painful. Comment your thoughts and feelings about what happened. I'd really appreciate it. Plus, happy 21st to the adorable asshole himself, hopefully he's turning up right now. Xoxo