Stranded

Eight

Nate's POV

Sitting under a tree with con quietly watching the others is what I'm currently doing, my back pressed to his chest while I sit between his legs. His head resting on the top of mine while his arms wrapped around my stomach, I play with his fingers to keep me entertained. I watch as everyone is spread out along the beach quietly, it's been like this since last night. No one dared said anything, it was definitely the quietest we have ever been. James and Tris by the water, Levi and Drew not saying anything just staring, Brad and James sun bathing. I hate it being this quiet, I feel as if I say anything though everyone's going to tell me to shut up.

Yesterday was very eventful..
I never in my wildest dreams would have thought that I would be kissing my best friend while we're stranded on a beach, I feel like such a fool because I completely freaked out. I actually liked it, but it was wrong I shouldn't be kissing my best friend of years. We were just talking then next thing I know his lips are on mine, it wasn't like I started the kiss it was him. When we pulled away I could still feel him on my lips, even when I ran I could still feel that tingly feeling. I don't even know what happened, I was shocked and scared. I thought he might have known that I liked him, that he's trying to trick me. I thought he would start laughing and calling me names because I liked it, but then I thought what if he turns. What if he just doesn't want to be my friend anymore? I couldn't let that happen, well I guess yet anyway. I started to panic, I was hyperventilating for gosh sake! It took Austin and Connor to calm me down. No one else knows what happened well I did see James run into the woods after Drew I think but I managed to fall asleep before they even got back, you would think I would just relax and enjoy the kiss. I know but what I don't know is what came over me to react that why so obviously I had to go before I made a bigger fool of myself.

Then I started thinking about Levi. What if Drew told Levi? Then I wouldn't have a chance with ether of them. Well that's great I've ruined everything. Letting out a sigh I look up at the sky, I just want to get off this bloody beach before I go insane.

I look down when I feel Con move his chin from my head to my shoulder, he picks my left arm up and moves all my wristbands and bracelets. I don't know what he's looking for I haven't done anything, well there anyway. I have considered it a while ago when I was going through a really bad time, no one knew and everything was too much for me. I felt numb and no one was even home to know.

He picks up my other arm and does the same, he pauses when he sees faint scars. They're very faint though, he just traces over them gently not saying anything. "I haven't done anymore I promise" I say quietly, he nods "It was ages ago" I say watching him trace them.

"Don't worry about bud" he says, patting my leg before resting his hands on my stomach again. I pick them up and fiddle with them like before, "Everybody's got their demons" he says quietly, I bite my lip nodding.

Except I can't drown mine.

Drew's POV

I've never felt more sad and awkward in my life. Me and Levi are sat in silence while the others do what they're doing, he doesn't know what's going on and I'm not going to tell him for many reasons. I can't help but feel jealousy watching Con hold Nate in his arms, but then again I ruined my chances with him ever. Maybe he likes Con, they have always connected since we've joined their record label. I wouldn't be surprised if they started dating, hurt but not surprised. James promised me that me and Nate would be together, I don't know how he expects that to happen but I'll trust him for a little while. I just want all this to stop, I want to go back to being best friends with him. I want everybody to go back to normal, I want Brad to be making comments about everything. I want Tristan go back to messing around and being himself, I want Austin to be making his funny impressions, I want Levi and me to be have we always were, I want Nate to go back to himself, I want James to continue being that protective yet laid back guy. I just want to feel normal.

"He was hyperventilating ya know" Levi suddenly speaks up,

"Levi.." I trail, he's been trying to find out what happened and I refuse to tell him, mainly for my sake.

"Okay I get it sorry" he sighs, I sigh too resting a hand on his knee

"You have to understand this is hard on me too, we'll tell you in our own time" I say and he nods, he smiles a little

"It's alright I'm just really nosey" he chuckles but it doesn't seem too emotion filled, I smile sadly

I knew that in a week everything would go wrong..