Stranded

Fourteen

2 weeks, 6 days 

James' POV

It must be at least a month now since we have been stranded on this island, we thought about naming it but with all thats gone on in this short space of time we didn't get the chance to. Me and Tris are..surviving at the most, It's not easy trying to adapt to a new way of living. The place is quiet as it seems to be everyday, I haven't seen one animal other than the occasional bird once in awhile.I find that odd there has to be some sort of animal everywhere right? 

I miss being at home even more so than i would being on tour, we can't use our phones, we can't keep as warm, we argue so much more, low amounts of food and no other people apart from us is not healthy. If we ever leave we will have lost so much weight, I can't even go to the gym like i used to. The only exercise i get is going for a jog if i'm up for it, sometimes i get Tris to tag along  even if he complains until i kiss him. 

Speaking of Tristan I still can't believe the tall dorky goofball is mine, past relationships with girls never felt this right. I thought about my recent break up, she was lovely I thought I had found the one. Then again I'm still young. Tristan has been what do you call it?.. More reserved. He hasn't shown much emotion just a blank face staring off into the distance, much Like Nate who has only just started to slowly come around again. I tried talking to him about it but he'd just brush it off as nothing or someone will interrupt us. I just want to know if he's okay but i don't think any of us are really okay.

Sometimes i wonder if it was really worth drinking so much to get here, If we make it out of here we definitely won't drink as much as we did even if i didn't drink at all.

The weather has been weird here, it rains occasionally but only for about 10 minutes. It's been quite warm lately and I'm starting to worry if this could be bad, with my geography skills the tide has been low by the looks of it. We need more rain if we are going to survive out here. I'm pretty sure i saw  mountain somewhere but that could also be a volcano, i'm hoping it's a mountain. 

We've done a good job of taking care of how much we eat, so the food portion is okay right now. The boys have been less talkative, maybe there still in shock to what happened. I think they are a little less tense now that Nate actually talks to them rather than saying nothing at all to anyone, Brad and Connor seem alright to me. They are the only two that hasn't really got problems going on between them, they still seem close as they were before. I only hope they stay the same.

We decided that it was around lunch time well Connor did anyway so that's how we found ourselves sitting on the logs we found, that was supposed to be around a fire but instead we decided that it's too hot to have a fire. Tris has his head resting on my shoulder while slowly eating some berries, If we ever make it out of here I reckon we write guide on how to survive when stranded. "We should get out the sun guys" I speak up after a while,  with a sigh we retreat back to the shade of the trees. I just wanna go home

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"Connor are you even listening to me?" Brad asks, I look up and blush slightly. He sighs knowing that i hadn't heard a word he had just said, "Sorry" I mutter biting my lip. 

"I was saying maybe when we get back we will have a whole album it was supposed be a joke about how long we've been here but you obviously weren't listening"He grumbles, I frown. "I said I was sorry Brad why are getting so annoyed you do it to me all the time i didn't mean it" I say getting a little annoyed with his behaviour. He's been getting more and more angry easily which is bad because he's never angry, I've been blaming it on being stranded but it's starting to get annoying when all he does is take it out on me.

"Me annoyed the only reason I'm annoyed is because of you Connor you"He spits, I sit up straight. Well that hurt.

 "What have I ever done to you Brad the only thing I have ever been is nice, I've always tried to make you happy Brad. Whenever you're sad i try and cheer you up, If you're cold I'll try and warm you up. Since we've been on this island you have been nothing but horrible to me, I have done nothing to make you feel this way Brad. It hurts that you take this all out on me, you never consider how I feel or make sure I'm alright do you Bradley?"I say my voice raising a little, by now I know that the other's can hear us.

"I don't consider how you feel? Are you that dumb? Or maybe blind maybe you should find those glasses of yours Connor! Because I have tried so much to make you understand how I feel, being on this island stranded is hard enough as it is! All it is, is you, you, you! Oh Connor this Oh Connor that. Oh Connor why don't you get back to your boyfriend who so desperately needs you! You have been constantly on my mind and it's so frustrating. Sometimes I think what would it have been like if you had never joined the band maybe then I wouldn't feel this way!"He shouts, 

I let out a gasp as the tears blur my vision, through the tears I can make out his face changing to a softer expression realising what he just said. "Oh my gosh con i-i d-didn'-" He starts reaching out for me but I shake my head and move away from him. I can't believe that he just said that, I stand up almost tripping over my own feet. 

I can't breathe but i start running, as fast as my legs will allow ignoring the calls of my name. I need to get out of here, I need my inhaler. But Brad's got it, I let out a sob. I can't see where I'm going, Am I even still running?

I feel numb, the words he said echoing in my head. Go back to that boyfriend of yours who so desperately needs you I don't even have a boyfriend sometimes I wonder what it would be like if you never joined the band my heart breaks then I wouldn't feel this way feel my legs start to buckle.

Where am I? I feel faint. Still can't breathe. 

I slow down and look around, the place is spinning. I reach out and grab a tree to catch myself but my foot slips and I feel myself falling with a gasp.