Stranded

Nine

Drew's POV

Is it bad that I can't feel anything? I don't feel sad, I don't feel pain, I don't feel happiness. Just nothing at all, the little warmth coming from the sun as a little breeze drifts through. It's officially been a week I feel like I know this place like the back of my hand, I've been to the waterfall so many times. Somehow there's still some corn washing up on the shore, we put James Tris and Austin in charge of food I think that's a good choice. The awkward tension and negativity is still here surrounding us like a bubble not wanting to burst, Levi has given up trying to find out what happened. Nate hasn't said a word to me not even looked in my direction, Connor has been almost protective? over him. James has been checking up on me asking how I am, I never do actually answer. How am I supposed to act like I'm okay when I've lost my best friend because of a stupid kiss? It's all I can think about, I can't act like nothing happened. It's like everyone knows but they don't, it almost physically pained me to see him crying because of me. So much has happened in one week, how much longer can we survive without the possibility of driving each other past the limit? If I want to keep our friendship then I'm going to need to do something to get him back, the problem is I'm too much of a baby to do so.

James sits next to me, I know because he and Levi are the only people that have bothered to talk to me and Levi is in the water with Austin so. "Hey bud" he says, I look over at him to see he has a sad? smile on his face. Why would he be sad, he's still got his best friends and a boyfriend. "How you holding up?" He asks, I shrug looking down. This whole thing is stupid, all this because of one kiss. I hear him sigh, "you know He's been at the waterfall for a while con was gonna check on him but I said maybe you should" he says

I doubt I would be the person he wants to see right now, "I don't think that's a good idea" I say quietly

He pats my shoulder "Drew you two need to make up at some point" he says before standing up and holding his hand out for me to take, I sigh and take it letting him help me up. "Because remember there's still a chance" he winks before patting my back and walking back over to the boys, he's probably going to smooch his boyfriend.

I guess it's now or never.

Making my way to the woods I quietly listen out for anything, I haven't seen any animals here other than insects and a few birds. I make it to the waterfall to see Nate sat with his feet in the water staring at nothing. I bite my lip and walk over to him though he doesn't seem to notice I'm here or he's choosing to ignore me. I don't blame him. "Nate?" I ask a little shakily, I can't help that I'm a little nervous. I don't know what the outcome of this is going to be. He looks up and sighs going to stand up "Drew I don-" he starts but I shake my head

"No please we need to talk, I know I made you feel this way and I'm sorry. Yeah I know sorry isn't enough this has been tearing me apart" I say and he stands up looking a little annoyed

"It's been tearing you apart but how do you think I feel, this is killing me Drew. I've got so many emotions I can't control, my head is spinning. I was already vulnerable then next thing I know my best friend's kissing me!" He exclaims

"Nate you don't know how hard it was for me knowing that i was the one that made you cry and upset and I don't know what came over me Nate. I'm being truthful I don't want to seem like a jerk to play with people's feeling or whatever it was a heat of the moment thing and I'm sorry. Please Nate I need my best friend back" I plead feeling my eyes prickle with tears, he's already got stray tears running down his cheeks. I step a little closer and reach to wipe away his tears, surprisingly he lets me as he looks down at his feet.

"I'm sorry" I say quietly, he sniffles and I bite my lip. He looks up at me with his glossy eyes, "I'm sorry too"he whispers

I pull him into a hug and he hugs me back just as tight, "I've missed you so much, even if it's only been a day and a bit" I say causing him to chuckle lightly

"I missed you too Drew" he says into my chest,

"That rhymed" I smile,

"Shut up" he laughs making me grin because I've got my best friend back and that's all I can ever ask for right now.

Levi's POV

Jealousy is a horrible feeling, especially when it comes to love. I know they aren't dating but some how my brain just won't stop telling me they are, every time I see them hug and laugh and walk off together I feel more and more jealous. Maybe even a little sad, me and Nate used to be like that, I say used to because 2 weeks ago we wouldn't have been here. Two weeks ago it would be all of us having fun and messing around, two weeks ago everything was once okay. So far there's been love, tears, fights and a lot of silence. I just want to be the one to hug him, make him laugh, make him happy. Of course that's not going to happen anytime soon, or ever for that matter maybe we're just not meant to be? Things have been weird, I know something happened between Drew and Nate but no one is telling me. It's really frustrating me I want to scream. I want to be home, I want to be with my family, I want to have actual food and my bed. I don't want to be here.

I haven't had a proper conversation with any of the boys except Austin which is kind of saddening they're all like my brothers and we all seem to be drifting apart. This beach is tearing us apart I don't know how long it will be until we completely go insane. Drew had gone off to 'make up' with Nate they're probably kissing, I can't help the fact all my thoughts are running wild. I sigh as I feel someone sit beside me, probably Austin. He's the only one that I've talked to properly so far, I guess he's the only one that cares. "You look like you're going to cry" says the person who I recognise to be in fact Austin, I bite my lip and shrug. I want to. "It's okay to cry y'know" He says wrapping his arm around my shoulders, I lean into him as I feel myself tear up.

"I just want this to end" I whisper as a tear runs down my face, he rubs my side and nods. I close my eyes as I feel more tears running down my face, he's right maybe I just need to cry and let it out, though I feel like I do that a lot anyway. "It's 'them' isn't it?" He asks referring to Nate and Drew, I nod and sniffle trying not to full on sob like a child. "It just hurts why does love hurt?" I whimper clutching onto him, He continues rubbing my side as a form of comfort.

"I don't know bro but I know you'll be okay you're a strong guy Levi"He says reassuringly, I'm finding that a little hard to believe.

"They don't even talk to me anymore Austin, everyone is keeping secrets from me. I miss my family, I miss home I hate it here and this is making it worse" I cry, I look up to see him biting his lip. I pull away and look at him properly, "J-just tell me..Are they dating do they have a secret relationship that I need to know about because this is pushing me over the edge!" I exclaim but not loud enough for the others to hear, He looks down before shaking his head. "that's bull crap Austin" I mutter as more tears fall, I look away at the sand. I knew it.

"No Levi you don't understand and you need to trust me on this, they are not dating. Yes there's something that they are keeping from you but they will tell you when they want. Things have been going all over the place I know but you have to Trust me Levi it's for the better" He says resting his hand on my shoulder, I sigh again and nod. They're probably fuck buddies. "just get all the negative thoughts out your head mate things are gunna work out" He says and I force a smile

"Thanks Austin sorry I shouted I'm just I don't know anymore" I say as he pulls me into a hug, he pats my back.

"Don't worry man I told you I'd alway be here for you"He smiles and i smile back pulling away just as Nate and Drew walk back in from the woods, they walk over to us looking better than they did when they left. I sigh and look down expecting them to completely blank me like they have been doing before, Instead I get a lapful of Nate. He's sat facing me and smiles a little, I feel myself blush before smiling back. In the corner of my eye I see Austin moving to sit next to Drew In front (or behind Nate)me, He smirks and winks at me. Rolling my eyes I turn my attention back to the blonde boy in my lap, "have you been crying?" He asks and I shrug

He pouts looking adorably cute, "Just homesick I'm okay" I say which isn't a complete lie, He seems to be convinced by the way he nods and smiles a little. "you'll be okay" He says quietly before turning around on my lap and laying on me so he's backs pressed to my chest, my eyes widen when he shifts on a certain place. Austin raises an eyebrow at me but I brush him off, gosh the things this boy does to me..