Stranded

Thirteen

2 weeks 

Drew's POV 

4 days Later and I think Nate's gone back to when we first came here completely silent, he won't talk to anyone. Not me, Not Levi, Not Austin not even Con. We're all so worried about him who know's what he might be thinking in that head of his, maybe the fact he almost tried to end his life sunk in. It stills goes through my mind atleast once a day only leading for me to make sure that he is okay, Levi is almost the same. He sits still staring at nothing with a blank look on his face, he still seems to be blaming himself and no one knows why or what happened. Sometimes I would get him to talk me to me but he wouldn't dare tell me what happened, sometimes I wake up to find him crying. Sometimes it's Nate and we have to shout for him to awake from the nightmares he has, things aren't probably going to be the same after what happened. All we can do is be there for each other, I look around seeing that we are in need of food. 

With a sigh I stand up from my position on the floor and quickly check on Nate who's asleep on Austin's Jumper made into a temporary pillow, He seems okay. I'm always scared to leave in case something else happens but then I have to convince myself that It's just me being paranoid, I look over at Levi who is yet again staring at nothing. I'm worried for him he seems to be beating himself up about something and I really want to know what. "Levi" I say causing him to snap out his trance, he looks up at me and smiles a little. "hey" he says quietly

I hold my hand out for him to take which he does standing up before brushing himself off "Where are we going?" He asks as I lead the way into the woods, I shrug as we go into a comfortable silence. I need to get answers on what happened, I hum the tune of Weightless by All Time Low to break the silence. I stop when I feel we are far enough for the Boys not to hear our conversation, Sitting down on a rock I beckon Levi to do the same. "What's up?" he asks 

"You know what Levi" I say not meaning for it too come out so harshly I see him flinch a little making me feel even worse "Sorry I didn't mean it like that" I say a little softer, He nods while looking down with a sigh. "I Knew you were gunna ask at some point" he says quietly 

"I just want to make sure that you and Nate are okay" I say and he nods again, before slowly looking up at me with nervous eyes. 

"When we went out into the woods the other day we were talking and stuff, then I decided to break the tension by tickling him. I hadn't seem him laugh in a while, it was nice. Of course me being me accidently tripped over myself and nearly fell onto him, I caught myself on a tree luckily but we were in that awkward position of my hands either side of his head" He starts and I bite my lip, I think i might know what he's going to say next. I knew it, they always seemed to be close. The way they would cuddle and laugh why did I think i would have a chance with either of them?

"Are you okay?"He asks and I look up to see him looking a little concerned, I nod. Of course I'm not. "continue" i say and he nods slowly 

"Next thing I know w-we're k-kissing, after a while h-he pulled away and started saying things like 'oh gosh no or this is bad. he was crying when he told me sorry before running off, I tried going after him but I couldn't find him. It w-was all my fault h-he tried to k-kill himself" He sobs and I try and bite back my tears. This is no time to be selfish and vain at least comfort him! 

I sit forward and pull him into a hug "Don't blame this all on yourself" I say rubbing his back, he shakes his head "I l-love him d-drew" He says after a while and that's when I feel my heart shatter, yet again I try and tame my tears from falling. He pulls away to look at me when I don't reply "Drew? What's wrong?" he asks and I shake my head acting like nothing was wrong, It's kinda hard when one of your crushes tells you that he's in love with your other crush. This time he's the one  to pull me into a hug and I hug back letting the tears fall, how am I supposed to tell him that I like both him and Nate? "it's okay" he says and I shake my head no everything is not okay.

"Drew please tell me what's wrong" he pleads pulling away to look me in the eyes, I sniffle and wipe my face. 2 weeks has really turned me into a baby, I take a deep breath. I guess this is the day I lose all my friends. "I l-like you" I whisper, I close my eyes hearing him gasp. He mutters something and I turn away from him not wanting to see his reaction, "Drew.."He trails off, I ignore him. "Drew please look at me" he says, with another sigh I turn and open my eyes. He has a look on his face that I can't determine, "Why didn't you tell me sooner?" He asks softly and I shrug, it's obvious I'm never going to get either of the two now. Levi Loves Nate and I'm pretty sure Nate loves Levi. "I-I like nate too" I whisper hoping he doesn't hear me, I feel him move and I flinch. "I wasn't going to hit you drew" He says and I sigh, I'm so pathetic. "Sorry" I mumble, He shakes his head standing up. 

He walks around looking up at the sky or the trees anyway. I hear him muttering some things that I can't make out before he sighs and turns to me "I know what you're thinking and I don't hate you drew, in fact I think the opposite of you " He says and I furrow my eyebrows in confusion, He chuckles and sits beside me. "I like you too Drew" He says making me even more confused "I like you and Nate" He sighs looking down, I smile a little.

"What does this mean we both like each other and nate" I say and I feel him shrug, "I h-have to tell you something" I say and he looks up at me. "remember when i wouldn't tell you what happened between me and nate?" I ask and he nods "I-i kissed h-him t-too and h-he freaked out a little" I say quietly 

"Oh" was all he said, I've blown my chance now haven't I? "Did you like it?"  He asks and it takes me a second to understand what he just said. I look at him and he looks at me expectedly "w-well y-yeah I g-guess" I say with a blush coating my cheeks "Did you like y-your kiss?" I ask and this time he blushes with a nod.

It goes into a little awkward silence before Levi speaks up "Let's keep this between us for a little while" He says and I nod, i think that's a good a idea for now especially after everything that's been happening.

"Well I guess we should go back to the boys"