Stranded

Fifthteen

Few minutes later

Nate's POV 

I watch in shock at the scene that just happened in front of us, i never thought brad would say something like that. The look on Connor's face showed how much it hurt him, right now Brad is most likely crying into his hands while James shouts something at him. I stand up and walk over to Brad who looks up just as James finishes shouting with a sigh, "Give me his inhaler" I say quietly and he looks at me in confusion but does so. I take it and start walking in the direction Connor ran off in, I think out of everyone here I know what he's going through the most. He can't have got far, I made it to the other end of the beach when I ran off. He probably doesn't know where he's going, I can only hope he's okay. I hear shouts from somewhere behind me that sounds like Connor's name from maybe James or Austin or maybe both. I don't want a repeat of what I did, I still regret everything. I regret not doing it completely and I regret even trying it at all, I'm happy there isn't many dangerous things around here. 

Drew and Levi seem close again if they're not trying to talk to me then they're snuggled up to each other all lovey dovey. I'm not gunna lie it hurts me to see them like that but I rather cover my feelings than look weak, i've done it most my life why change now? Being here has changed everyone, some good most bad. I wish we never came here, but then Trames wouldn't be together someone deserves to be happy at least. I wish I was home then again I think we all do, I have far too much time to think and that's not good. 

I shake my head and focus on trying to find Connor, looking around I realise that I haven't been watching where i was going surprisingly i haven't walked into something or fallen over. Where would Connor be when he's upset? Brad mentioned something about him hiding whenever he was upset because he didn't like to be seen like that. I guess that's understandable but there's so many places you can hide here, I let out a sigh and head towards the waterfall.

I'm such an idiot! Who the hell says that to their best friend?! He looked so hurt it physically pained me to see such a look, he doesn't deserve to be sad and now I'm the one who caused it. Tristan won't say anything to me, he won't even look me in the eye. I wouldn't look me in the eye either, I've been sat here for around 20 minutes crying into my hands and yet no one has made the effort to comfort me. It's understandable, I shouldn't have said something I didn't mean. I don't even know why I was annoyed, maybe because the heat and the boredom. I'm never this angry it just came out of nowhere and I took it out on him, I've always tried to make you happy Brad. It's true he's always been there to make me laugh as was I too him, Since we've been on this island you have been nothing but horrible to me. That was like a stab in stomach, I swear I've been nice but the last week has been so hectic maybe i took it out on him? It hurts that you take this all out on me, that was like a stab to the heart. I never wanted him to feel this way because of me. You never consider how I feel or make sure I'm alright do you Bradley? He never calls me Bradley unless He's mad at me or jokingly, He doesn't know how much I hate and love how he makes me feel. I'm so confused but seeing his smile makes me better now I don't think he'll ever want to look at me again.

I stand up noticing that Tris, Drew and Levi all look up at me. "I'm going to try and fix what I messed up" I mutter before walking the direction he took off, my poor little con. He could be anywhere especially if he is this upset, whenever he's upset or scared he finds somewhere to hide. I remember one day he was scared before one of our concerts and everyone was looking for him, I found him hid in one of the closets curled up to make himself even smaller as if he didn't want to be found. I noticed this became a thing when he was nervous or sad, one time Tristan shouted at him for staining his favourite shirt. Connor took off somewhere it took us an hour to find him, well I did he was only under a table in one of the dressing rooms. I know sometimes when we're in stadiums the crew will let him somewhere backstage where they work and he hides himself there, they don't like us there but it seems they make an exception with con. 

Thinking about this only makes me more upset so I shake my head and continue looking around for him, I look up at the trees, down behind tall rocks everywhere. I stop by a slight ditch in the ground, just as I was about to move I notice that it looks like something or someone fell by the skid marks. Biting my lip I walk closer to see inside gasping at the sight. 

"Con oh my god con" I rush starting to panic, I gently pick him up bridal style noticing how light he is. A tear escapes my eye as he lays unresponsive in my arms, I look around in search of the others before walking back the way I came. He must of been the one that fell- well obviously he's got dirt all over him and a few cuts/bruises. I don't know when I started to run but it didn't take long until I got back to the beach with the others. They gasp at the sight and run over to me asking me millions of questions at once, I let out a sob giving Connor to James before moving out the way.

He won't want to see me, Austin looks at me sadly before walking over. "We know you didn't mean it Brad" He says resting a hand on my shoulder, I simply nod watching James and the others figure out what's wrong with Connor "He probably thinks I hate him" I say quietly 

"He's hurt we were all shocked at what you said" Austin says and I nod again, "I didn't mean it I feel like such a prick I hope he's okay" I say looking down,

"He seems to have woken up" He says but I don't look up, Instead I lower myself to the ground and bury my head in my arms.

I can't face him now.

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