Stranded

Twelve

1 week 3 days  

Drew's POV 

-yesterday- "We need to get him back to the other side of the beach" James says standing up, we nod i stand up gently picking nate up. he's so cold i hope he doesn't have hyperthermia we can't do anything on a beach stranded. his head lolls against my shoulder as we speedily rush to where we were before, james starts giving out orders while i sit down by the fading fire with nate. i've only just realised he fell asleep on the way but i don't know if that's a good thing "Should i wake him?" I ask panicky, james shakes his head sitting on the other side of nate. he checks his pulse and shakes his head again "he's still breathing and his pulse is better than before i think he should be okay" he says and i nod. i take his wet clothes off knowing that after situations like this you have to try and keep the person warm. brad and con get the fire running and i sit as close as i can with nate in my arms. 

levi looks at me sadly and almost guilty but i can't focus on him right now i need to make sure that nate is okay.

Silence.

That's all i hear right now, no one has said anything. Nate hasn't said anything since yesterday, the only time we have said anything was earlier on this morning then it was just silent. James and Tristan are sat under the same tree they always sit under since we got here, Brad and Con are sat with a gap between them. Austin is sat next to Levi, I have Nate in my lap holding him I don't know if he's awake or not. I don't think I've ever cried so hard in my life before yesterday, I mean I've cried a lot but never as much as i did when I found out my best friend had almost killed himself. I think we're all just a little shocked to what happened especially Nate, If James hadn't found us then i don't think I would have Nate here in my arms Alive. It's all i can think about, seeing him go limp in the water slowly sinking down. It keeps replaying in my mind, 2 weeks is all it took for the worst to happen. We need to leave and it needs to be sooner rather than later before anything else happens. 

I have to admit that I'm really comfortable just holding him here in my arms, he fits perfectly. I'd hold him forever to make sure he's okay, he isn't the person to talk about what he's feeling i guess you have to find out the hard way. I'm not going to say i can't trust him to be alone anymore but i think he feels like that, i trust him i do but something must have pushed him to the edge and i want to find out what it is. He's delicate but he doesn't show it, he's broken but he covers it with a smile, he's hurting but he blocks everyone out. He's hiding something but i'm going to find out.

Levi, he's been deep in thought. Hasn't said a word, he just has a blank look on his face staring at the sand. It hurts me to see him hurting, i want to know what happened and by the looks of it Levi is the only one that can tell me. Austin seems to be the calmest out of all of us, he also seems to know what's going on. Yeah he was shocked and upset about what happened yesterday but he's caring for us more than he's caring for himself, he's a little strange. Not in a bad way but in away that he's always so happy always there for other people he's laid back he's difficult to figure out but he's that guy that everyone loves.

Letting out a sigh i look down at the boy in my arms, his hair all over the place his head resting on my chest. I raise my hand and move his hair out his face, sleeping is all he tends to do now a days. I guess he's the most a peace when he's asleep so i wouldn't disturb him, we all still huddle together when we sleep that hasn't changed. I guess if we don't want to freeze this is most we can do.

I start humming the tune to Chasing Cars, i haven't thought of this song in ages. I wish i could just lay here and forget the world but too much is happening i don't want to miss a day with my best friends.

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone  

I look up as Levi sits next to me, he gives me a sad smile and i return the gesture. 'If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?' he sings softly, i smile wider and continue humming the tune letting him sing. His singing makes me feel at ease maybe that's what i need. 

'I don't quite know How to say How I feel' he sings looking down at his hands, i use the hand that i haven't got wrapped around nate to take his hand. He smiles a little 'Those three words Are said too much They're not enough' 

Those lines couldn't be anymore true