7/8/2013
Dear My Future Husband,
Things have been getting hard again. I try and tell myself that it will be okay once I meet you, but I don't know. What if I'm not good enough for you? Then again, why would you marry me if you didn't love me? I guess I have to trust God on this one, right?
Speaking of God, He told me something the other day. I guess things were bad that day and my insecurities were getting the best of me. I was kind of losing hope in you because I didn't like myself so why would you? But of course you'll like me because God made you for me, no one else. Anyways, He told me something special. It was quite neat actually and every time I feel down I think of you and what God told me. He told me you pray for me.
I guess it's kind of like how I pray for you, the things I want in you and what your life is like at the moment. I'm not quite sure who you are or if I even know you at this point in my life, but you mean everything to me. So whatever you're going through, just know I'm in your heart. I love you so much.
It seems crazy to people because they don't understand that God has a certain person picked out for them and instead they choose to think that they'll never be loved. I got through that idea a long time ago. I know you're out there and I know you'll love me just the same as I love you because God made you for me. Why would God give me someone that would hate me? He wouldn't.
So my point is that I pray for you too. You could be reading this in the future...or you might not. But either way it feels cool to just write it down, well type it down but you get the idea. I miss you and I hope things are going okay for you. Always remember God loves you more than anything and you can rely on Him. He's got his arms wide open to embrace you and help you along the way. (:
Love,
Megan x
