Dear Harry,
Hello Sunshine! I miss you. I wish you could respond back, but that's alright I guess...I get it, you're busy. So how have you been? Enjoying Australia?
Things haven't been going very well lately. I really wish you were here. Sort of like a twister. Everything is just being torn apart and then thrown resulting into scattered pieces of junk. I guess that's life though? I just have to keep a positive attitude and talk to God more.
I've been struggling alot lately and I finally realized why. Despite the happiness you bring me when I think of you when I'm sad, I found out the issue of why it's only temporary I suppose. I had pushed God to the side. It's not like it was my intention on doing so, but I did without thinking twice. I thought once but didn't care and that was wrong. I'm not sure if I already explained all this to you in one of my previous letters but you don't mind right? I can tell you anything.
So, lately I've been trying to grow closer to God again. I've been talking to Him alot more because I guess...I missed Him. I missed the feeling of having that one person like no other that could just let me release all my heck to Him. It's really nice because He doesn't judge me and He just comforts me.
I still think of you often though because you're the one thing that can make me smile no matter what. I suppose it's because I don't give you many flaws in my perspective of you. It's okay though because one day I'll actually get to meet you and I'll be able to hug you, that's all I ever really wanted. A hug from you. It could save a life.
You know 'Wake Me Up' by Avicii? I freaking love that song. I had a rave in my room the other night to it and it was alot of fun with everybody that showed up(just me). (Note: *Awkward laughter*) I don't have raves in my room, I don't know what your talking about!? ;D But seriously those are probably one of the best stress relievers because I just dance around and lip sync like a boss. I can't sing for anything so don't even get me to try! I leave the singing to my friends because I know they've got potential in it. I really think they're going to make it big one day. You think you could hook them up? No? Yes? Okay.(;
Oh and I've decided on my two inspirations; Macklemore and Katy Perry. They speak the truth and I love them...seriously. Do you remember when you put your chin on Louis's shoulder during Same Love at the VMA's, yeah, I do. Why haven't you two come out yet? You're both perfect together and the whole fandom would support you and if they didn't then I'm pretty sure they'd regret it. I support you two. You've done alot more than you think for me when it comes to you and Louis. It's sort of hard to explain, but thank you.
I still want to talk to you, but I'm not sure what to write about. I still feel a bit stressed and stuff. I have to do my fitness program thing for school later so maybe that'll relax me a bit.
Oh oh so I'm listening to this song and I want to ask you a question. I saw this picture of your ship tattoo and it looked like writing on it and someone found out what the writing meant and um...it said 'Lighters and survived'. So what happened? Did you/Do you self harm baby? I'm here for you, ya know? I know what it's like. You don't deserve the pain you might cause yourself. Stay strong!
Fall down twice, stand up again.
So let's see, how's tour going? Having fun bantering with the boys? Diana is amazing by the way! Ilistened to it and I love the meaning behind it. You and the boys are so lovely. <3
I really hope I can go to the WWA stadium tour. It would be so much fun! Seriously when I went to the TMH concert I didn't think it was real life. I still can't believe it happened. I was actually in the same room as you and I could see you...it was amazing. I freaking love you so much.
I'm listening to Macklemore right now actually....haha. I'm listening to you and Lou's song. It gives me mixed emotions.
Maybe when you do, I will. I'm not even sure. It's all confusing, you know? Sorry if this doesn't make sense. Sigh.
Thank you, Harry, for listening.
So um...I should go, alright? I'll write to you again soon because you're my favorite person to write to other than Aaron. Aaron is my aborted older brother. I'll tell you about him another time, okay? Have fun on tour! Try not to miss me too much. You're amazing.
I love you, Sunshine...
I miss you...
Love,
Megan x
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