Ink Heart

Chapter 15

Josh's POV

As much as I tried breaking down the door it was no use the door was made out if metal. I've never felt so hopeless. Everyone in the house is now dead silent and a lot of the people got scared and left the house as soon as possible. I am crying so hard the girl I love is behind this door possibly trying to kill herself and I can't do anything about it but scream and cry and wait for the ambulance to come. I keep pounding on the door until I feel Avans hand come onto my back and tells me to clam down and wait for the ambulance to come I then fall to the ground crying uncontrollable.

I did this, this is all my fault, I fucking hate myself now and... and that girl.

I sit on the ground crying with Avans hand on my back when I feel wetness under my hand I then reach my hand up when i see its covered in blood, I look at the ground I see a pool of blood coming from under the bathroom door. I now know that Kristen has cut herself and just as I'm about to stat pounding the door again I hear Kristen

"You don't need to save me anymore... Goodbye Josh."

Before I can do anything Avan grabs me and pulls me back, when I see the a guy come in with a axe and breaks the hinges on the door busting it open. I push Avan off me and run into the bathroom to see Kristen lying on the floor in a pool of blood with her wrist torn open. I just stand there in shock from all the blood and Kristen, lying on the ground not knowing if she's dead or not. Everything all of a sudden became slow motion as I watched a crowd of people rushing past me into the bathroom where they all pick up her body and lied into a stretcher. I then run out with them jumping into the ambulance as they rush to the hospital.

Kristen's POV

Waking up I feel drained as if all the energy in my body was tooken out. My vision is just starting to come back from this dark blur, I look around It is dark and I am not sure wear I am until I hear the soft beeping in my right ear I know now that I am in a hospital on a bed. I look down and then see that there is needels in my skin and I then see the at stitches it looked to be about 20, and there all across my wrist. I have failed my suicide. I then get this depressed feeling so deep that I can feel it in my bones. Tears start to trickle down my face, everyone must know about this now I can already see it in my mind

"Breaking news Josh Hutchersons girlfriend tried to kill herself."

We'll he was my boyfriend until I saw him kissing that slut last night. I bet all his fans are disappointed that I'm not dead now. I look up and then see Josh in a chair across from me sleeping. I don't want to be here when he wakes up, I feel so trapped now because I can't leave and wow my wrist is hurting so bad. I wonder how long I've been in the hospital for. I then hear Josh slowly start to wake up. I don't want to talk to him right now. I panic and quickly close my eyes pretending I'm still out cold. I then feel Josh grab my hand as he rubs his thumb against it. I don't think he knows that I'm awake. He then starts to talk

"Kristen, I am sorry for all the things I put you threw and I know that you have every right to dump me but before you do I need you too know the truth. Yesterday when you walked in on me kissing that girl it wasn't what it looked like, it turns out that she was a crazy fan and forced herself onto me and right when she did I pushed her off, but you just happened to walk in at the wrong moment. I'm sorry I fucked up.... I'm such a fuck up...and I almost took someone life from it. Mine... Because you are my life and if I lost you then my life would be gone too. Anyways I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am and that I love you and I need you too wake up now. Please.

  I now know that everything that I thought was wrong and tears start falling down my face not from sadness tho, from happiness, because I am happy I don't have to lose him I then feel that relief feeling again. I then start to smile and flutter open my eyes when I look at Josh with his head down on my stomach I then stroke the top of his back when he slowly eases up and looks at me with tears in his eyes. He looks at me in my face and then touches me to make sure he's not just dreaming his sad face then turns to a smile as he starts to cry more I now know that we are both crying from happiness. Josh then leans in and grabs a hold of me hugging me so tight against his chest and then speaks

"How long have you been awake"

"Long enough to feel stupid for what I did"

Me and Josh neither want to let go from hugging so we don't, we just sit there in silence enjoying the moment that we have.

Me and Josh are not perfect hell were far from it, but what I do know is when I'm with him there's this new feeling that I am introduced to that I can't quite put my finger on, making this place in my heart where I thought there was no room for anything else, he has made flowers grow wrapping around my ribs like vines, and it's wonderful. What I'm trying to say is that ever since he came along I have felt this change in my heart, this change that leaves a mark that will never leave and everyday I can feel it spread.

Josh is my ink heart.  

(Hope you liked this chapter I will write soon! This kind of says the meaning of the title)