Ink Heart

Chapter 16

Kristen's POV

It feels like I've been in the hospital forever, what is it 2 weeks now? The food here sucks and they insisted that I get some therapy to help with the depression, anxiety, I also learned that I have anorexia and am sucicidal. I put up quite a fight that I didn't need the therapy and that I was fine but after some long talking with Josh he thought it was the right thing to do.

I turns out that the therapy isn't so bad there is a lot of awkward silences but I mostly just talk about my life and my feelings and I feel a lot better after I do even tho I know that my therapist doesn't care about what I talk about. But I at least have one person that does and that's Josh. He visits almost everyday we talk a lot and mostly do simple stuff like playing cards, I know it seems really boring but I like those little things.

Today they are letting me leave the hospital for good and I am not forced to see a therapist anymore, they recommended it but Josh's love works better then any therapist ever could. I walk down the hospital hallway down to the bottom floor where Josh should be waiting for me. I am only wearing a light plain short sleeve blouse and blue jeans. It's the hospitals clothes but I couldn't wear my clothes since there ruined from all the blood there covered in.

I feel uncomfortable because you can see the stitches across my wrist so I cover it with my other hand. I then see Josh waiting by the glass doors I run up to him and cling my body around his as we kiss passionately a few people in the hospital look at us and give us a smile. Then Josh notices that I'm covering my wrist with my hand, so he then pulls off his black hoodie over his head and hands it to me to wear, I put it on and happens to cover up my wrist. We make are way to the car without getting spotted by anyone, I then ask Josh

"So where are you taking me?"

........."Uhhh home?"

"No Josh I don't want to go home let's go do something fun?"

"Kristen you just got out of the hospital you need to go home and rest?"

"I don't need rest that's all I've been doing in that hospital, Please?"

Josh thinks for a moment and then turns his head to me.

"Fine, it's going to be a calm place tho okay"

I smile and then give him a quick peck on the cheek. I then realized that Josh called his house my home. He then changes directions and starts driving to Main. We park on the other side of the street across from the movie theatre. As were about to cross the street and Josh reaches down and holds my hand his hand is so cold and I can feel the goose bumps on his skin, he must be cold since I took his sweater plus its pretty gloomy outside.

We wait for the traffic to stop coming and make a break for it across the street hand and hand. Josh runs much faster then me that he is almost dragging my feet. We make it to the other side of the street running into the theatre with are hearts pumping. There are a lot of movies we could go see.

"Omg I want to go see Tears of Ashes!"

Josh then gives me a weird look "Are you sure it's kind of a depressing movie I heard"

He's right it's not really the best choice after just getting out of the hospital so we then both decide to go see a comedy instead.

"Kristen go save us some good spots while I go get us some snacks"

I walk off to find the movie when I yell back

"Extra butter!"

I actually dont feel hungry at all i just want to please Josh and make him think i'm not bad again... i'm not and will never starve myself again but it will take time before i actually enjoy food again.