Behind your shadow I stand and fall.
It's a tough battle in which I feel small.
My feelings towards you you may think is dumb,
Sad, upset, confused, and numb.
When I needed a mom you were not there,
To talk about boys or fix my hair.
Yes you did call every once in a while,
But an ocean of tears hide behind my smile.
Tormented, trapped ,and torn my heart says I feel.
A few months after I was born and my heart still won't heal.
I've seen other girls laugh with there moms,
I go dizzy with swirls and my feelings crash like a bomb.
The anger in me rages in fright,
Always staying angry at you, I just might.
Time heals everything I don't think that's true.
I know something time did not do.
Time has been flying for a long while,
And I've always tried to show a real smile.
One thing that always hurts and I don't know why,
The thought of you always makes me cry.
When I think about this I tell myself lies.
Like I've gotten over you, but this I would not try.
You are a mother , a mother of a few,
Me and my siblings, we hardly even know you.
Every night I used to think of how my life could have been,
Tears would run down my face and my head would start to spin.
Theses past few years have been really hard.
For the rest of my life I've truly been scarred.
It took some time to realize what you did to me.
There's tears in my eyes and your clueless it seems.
I've teied to be brave but this really hurts.
You could have stayed instead of making it worse.
I want you to know this, It's sad but it's true,
You hurt your little girl and the rest of your kids too.
You ruined me and made me cry.
You really hurt me , tough huh i can only try.
There's a hole in my heart the doctors can't see.
I guess they don't know what my mommy did to me.
You'll never get me back because you can't prove,
You can be a mom to me and the other kids too.
When I screamed for you did you hear a sound.
I guess not because you were never around.
I will tell you something you will never forget,
Once you hurt your kids you'll have to live with the regret.
This one is obviously written for my biological mother
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Allowing You To See Inside Me
PoetryThis is a book of my poetry, the title is exactly what it is this is me this is who i am my feelings, my life, this is my stories. Some of the poems comes with a short paragraph at the end to tell my readers what inspired my poem i truly hope yall d...
