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Chapter 21- Adam's POV

Hi, Humans. I'm sorry I haven't uploaded in a while. I'm still trying to adjust to school. Warning, this chapter contains romantic relations between two boys. If that offends you in anyway. I suggest you stop reading after this note. I don't see why it should; but if does, then Stop now. Okay, enjoy. This is the shortest chapter I've ever written.

Seeing Jace again after nearly five years did something to me that I couldn't quite place my finger on. I never thought I would see him again. He was a little skinnier than I remembered. His eyes, though. His eyes were just as brown and as expressive as the first time I met him.

I fell hard.

And fast.

And that scared me at the time. For one, I was only twelve at the time. Two, he was a boy. I was a boy. He was the son of a priest. I was the son of an alcaholic. Fate had a funny way of bringing together the most unlikely of pairs.

I'm a firm believer that everybody was born bisexual. Not so much in the sexual aspect of it, but in the sheer attraction between human beings. But society and religion all play a part in making us fear who we are able to fall for. And while society and Religion aren't necessarily bad things, it saddens me to know that some people don't end up with the ones they want all in the name of doing the 'right' thing.

Regardless of my views now, I was scared shitless to have feelings for another boy. It goddamn terrified me. It took great effort on my part to avoid Jace after meeting him. It didn't last long, because I saw him at school and and at Sunday mass, and just like, his brown eyes captivated me to the point where I forgot his gender all together.

I had my first kiss with Jace. My first time with Jace. My first love was Jace. He was an important part of me life, and I'd be damned if I let him go back to that place that would make him feel less of a human being.

The object of my thoughts took hesitant steps into the living room.

"Where's your friend?" He asked.

"She went home," I replied. "Come sit down, J. I don't bite."

He sat down, but as far away from me as humanly possible. "I don't know what I'm doing, A." He said, playing with his fingers. "I don't know where to go from here."

I inched closer to him and put my hand on his thigh. The action made him jump a little, but he relaxed under my touch again. "I don't know, either, J. But we'll figure it out, together. You've always been smart. It won't be difficult."

His smile didn't reach his eyes. It didnt bother me, because I knew it wouldn't be for long. He would soon see that everything had a way of being exactly the way they're supposed to be.

"I've missed you." Jace confessed. He looked like he couldn't believe he said those words out loud. "God, I've missed you. You don't even know how much. When you left, it broke me. I heard rumors, but I didn't know your father would do such a thing. I'm so sorry. It was all my fault he did that to you."

I shook my head. "It wasn't your fault. My father was a bastard. Don't diminish what we had. It was beautiful. It was amazing. It was the best two years of my life. I wouldn't trade that for anything in the world."

He gave me a genuine smile that time. "You were my first love, Adam. I hope you know that. And even though you might not love me anymore, I hope we can still be friends."

My gaze lifted to his. I knew I was his first love, just as he was mine. But I knew something else as well.

So I told him.

"Who said I ever stopped loving you?"

My lips met his halfway.