Nick & Carla one shots

Goodbye Carla

'Goodbye Carla'

"I remember when we first met, your dark black hair falling gently over your shoulders, the glisten in your eyes told me your were the loveliest most caring woman but I was wrong, you were the rudest of the rude and I strongly disliked you but if someone had told me, 5 years on, we would be together I would've laughed in their face. We went a few years without hardly speaking but once we did, I couldn't understand how much you had changed, you were so caring, so loving towards not only me but most people around you. Remember when you told me you didn't need me, you told me to get out, you pushed me, and I left. I knew you didn't really want me to go, I knew it was just you self destructing like you always had done. Your edge had always made me love you that bit more, your unpredictability would always keep me on my toes but I loved it, I Couldn't of loved it more. The moment we officially got together will always be something I remember, your teary eyes as you finally let yourself go, letting me hold you for what felt like hours, but was only a matter of 30 seconds. Every morning waking up to the feel of your skin against mine, your legs wrapped around mine, your hair gently falling over your face, your hand resting against my bare chest, nothing will ever compare to the mornings we would share together. Your concentration when making us a coffee was something I admired, you wouldn't give up, you would keep going until you got it right, even though I found it difficult to use your posh coffee machine you taught me in the end. Your gambling was hard to deal with, I felt like giving up on you, leaving you to yourself but I couldn't, I really couldn't do it. When you almost lost your business I knew it was worse that I had previously thought, so many years of your work had gone into that and you almost let it go because of your guilt. The fire that killed maddie and Kal, that hit you hard, you lost your whole flat but more Importnantly you lost part of yourself, you lost the real you, the carla that would mouth off at people, that would be a bitch to her workers and would stride down the cobbles like you owned the place but you lost it all. When you told me you almost threw yourself off the edge of the quarry because of it my heart sank, I wasn't there to pull you back, I wasn't there to tell you everything was going to be okay, instead Tracy Barlow was. She saved your life, Again. Even though Tracy started that fire, I was glad she was at that quarry with you and decided to finally pluck up the courage to tell you the truth. Ever since that day your whole world picked back up, your business was getting back to normal, your flat was getting all decorated again, you had me again, actually, you always had me. Whenever you smiled, I smiled. Whenever you laughed I couldn't help but laugh with you. Your eyes would fill me with love and your touch would make me feel like nobody ever has before. Christmas was perfect, spending it with your family and mine, it was like we had been together forever, I wished we could've, it was our plan. When you proposed to me I was shocked, shocked at the fact you felt like you wanted to be with me forever, wanted to share everything with me. When I finally turned around and said 'I will' your cute little face lit up, I had never seen you so overcome with emotion, so happy and loved. We were alone in the bistro, you kissed me like you meant it, like you never wanted us to part and I can tell you now, I never wanted to part from you in the way we have, I never wanted to part with you at all in fact. When you found out Johnny was your 'dad' and you started self destructing again, I tried to help you but you just pushed me away like usual, I knew you never meant it though, I knew you loved me, as I loved you, I still do and always will. When you were laying in that hospital bed, hanging onto life by a thread, I was adamant you would pull through adamant that in 2 months I would see you in your beautiful dress as you walk arm in arm with Roy and we would officially become Mr and Mrs Tilsley. I had always hoped that one day, we could start a family, watch our kids grow up together, take them to school together, pick them up, something that will never happen now. As I sat by your bed, watching your every slight sign of life, I felt you slightly squeeze my hand, you opened your eyes slowly but before I could even look into them you had closed them, but little did i know it would be the last time I could ever look into them, the breathing monitors started beeping uncontrollably, your heart beat started to slow and you were gone. Just like that. I couldn't say goodbye to you, I couldn't even tell you how much I loved you one last time but all I do know is that I did, I really really did and the fact you aren't here today, the day that we should've been checking out our venue for our big day, instead your laying in that coffin beside me, flowers stacked upon you, with everyone here, at your funeral. Today should've been special, it should've been happy but instead I'm here saying one last final goodbye to you, one that I will never forget. Goodbye Carla, I love you my angel, I hope heaven treats you well and we will meet again one day"

A/N Thankyou for reading! This was so hard to write just so you all know but I do hope you liked it. Please Comment your thoughts and don't forget to vote X