Nick & Carla one shots

The Letters

'Dear Nick,

I'm sorry. I am truly, deeply sorry. My actions back in May were beyond disgusting and every morning waking up next to you was a dream, until i was pulled back into reality of betraying you in the worst possible way i could have. Not only did i sleep with your chef, but i helped get YOUR business sold to him. I cant even express how sorry i am for what i did.

Laying here in Devon, as im writing you this letter, i can see the sea in the distance from my.. sorry 'our' bedroom window. The trees outside are swaying in the gentle breeze on this cool, october afternoon. All i can imagine is you in the garden with our baby that we planned. I mowed the grass today, something i never thought i would say, but living here has given me a new insight on life, and how i should treat each and every day.

The day i left that terraced street you always moaned about, was the hardest thing ive ever had to do. Memories after memories were made there, not just with you, but my whole family, my workforce, and all my friends. Seeing you that one last time before you dissapeared around the corner on your morning run, was soul destroying. The look of hate and anger written all over your face was something that will stay with me forever. When i waved at you, all i wanted was a wave back, to know not all of you hated me, but you didnt give it. You gave me a look which reminded me of everyone else i had ever hurt in the past, but quite honestly, the biggest mistake i ever made was cheating on you.

When i arrived here at our cottage, i cried. Not for a minute, not for an hour, but for days. The memories of our wedding which should have been filled with kittens and candyfloss, was instead filled with anger and hate. Every night i would close my eyes and the look you gave me when you saw me walk down the aisle re-entered my brain. That look only you ever gave me, and for that, i am eternally gratefull. I knew once you stood up to read your speech, the look in your eyes, and the look towards me, said everything i needed to know. You didnt want to marry me, not after what me, or Tracy had told you. Every inch of my heart broke at that moment, seeing you so destroyed by my actions, my lies, my deceit. I dont ever expect you to forgive me for that, not ever.

'i heard you moved on with Leanne. I have to say i was shocked, but i cant complain, because all i want is for you to be happy. If Leanne is the one, then Leanne is the one, i cant hold onto something that probably will never happen again. But i want you to know one thing, and that is that i will always love you, know matter what happens in the future. You were my rock, the man who stood by me through some challenging months and who never failed to make me feel loved. I hope Leanne realises how lucky she is to have you, because now that ive lost you its become clear to me just how lucky i really was.

i hope Leanne and you are happy, and everything works out, thankyou for everything,

love you forever, Carla xxx'

'Dear Carla,

what a suprise it is to hear from you. 5 months its almost been since i last seen that gorgeous face of yours. You're in Devon? wow, i hope youre enjoying it. Those memories we were going to make there, run through my head daily, but all i can hope is you live them with someone else, someone who can make you happier than i did. Because lets be honest, i wasnt exactly exciting.

'im sorry i didnt wave at you, or acknowledge you to the degree you hoped, but i couldnt bare to see you, not after everything that had been brought out in the open the day before. You must understand that, surely? Yes, the memories of our wedding arent flash, and i hope never to relive a wedding like it, and i hope you dont either. Just remember that i did love you, and i did want to spend the rest of my life with you. When i got down on one knee in the bistro last year, i couldnt believe i was going to marry you! The woman who stole my heart, also shattered it into millions of pieces.

'when you walked down that isle and turned to face me, my heart stopped. You looked beyond gorgeous. I was proud to be marrying you, i was excited for our life ahead, but it was shattered in seconds, and i wont ever forget that moment, but i may, in time, forgive.

yes i am with leanne again, and i guess im happy. bringing up Leannes baby that isnt even mine wasnt on my to do list lets say, but im willing to do it. I hope you find someone soon that you can spend the rest of your life with, and be happy. I think there will always be a part of me that will love you, but you have to move on and find a man that is gonna treat you like you deserve, and one day, who knows what will happen, we may become friends again, but right now, just focus on yourself.

love and luck, Nick xx'

Hey guys! Haven't written in a while, but thought I would do a bit of Nick and Carla because I miss them more and more everyday. Hope you like this one shot, please comment your thoughts and vote if you enjoyed! Thankyou X