I look up at Justin. He looked cute with the Doctors suit on and while a smile appeared on his face knowing his first new born was coming soon but he was rapidly going to find out that we can't keep him/her. "Are you guys ready?"the doctor called while getting started on the operation. Justin's face showed mix emotion but he soon selected one which was happiness and that is when a tear flew Down my face not for joy but for pain .I wasn't even going to be able to hold my first baby I wasn't going to see her grow up and I wasn't going to be called mom.
Justin's eyes went from the doctors to my face "it okay she is almost here don't cry baby girl"he said while intwining his finger in his hair . "Justin-"I was about to tell him the news but that is when the baby started crying. "It's a girl!"they announced. Tears flooded and my heart burned . The pain was so bad That I wanted to scream but instead I just cried "we will get you stitched and get you back in the hospital room"the nurse said to me "but for daddy you can follow us with the baby"she said . Justin quickly kissed me and left to the baby . I laid on the table with my tear stained face.
In the room
I was wheeled in and as I did I saw Justin hug the baby he whispered to her and love was all you could see she was a daddy's girl. I smiled as I saw them "enjoy the baby!"the nurses said before leaving. As the room fell in silence Justin looked at me "want to carry her?"he asked . I puffed air "we can't keep her"
