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Chapter 3 (Ally's POV)

Making this chapter just to make sense out of the last chapter (Chapter 3). This is also more in narrator POV but basically narrating Ally's thoughts/what she was doing. I could do change it up to an "I" perspective, where Ally is the one talking next time, comment if you want that instead. ^-^ Enjoy.

*Texting*

Stevie: Yeah I just got off the phone with her, I'm going. :) I have to go but see you Thursday.
Ally: See you.

Ally put her phone down and sucked on her teeth. She tried not to think about that night. She liked Stevie as a person and wanted to stay friends, in no way did she have any intention of hooking up with her again, especially like that. They were both pretty drunk the first time and Ally was stressed out and wasn't thinking straight with the eviction notice she got earlier that month and other things going on in her life at that time.

She sighed remembering what she was going through during that time. She's still pretty upset about that breakup to this day but she tries not to think about it to avoid the intrusive and negative thoughts that hid within the deeper parts of her mind that trigger anxieties she does not want to resurface.

If anything, she was happy being single, getting over everything and all.
T'was nice!

*Thursday*

As she entered the restaurant she saw Hannah and Arielle laughing at a table by themselves. Arielle saw Ally and waved, making a "come sit with us" gesture, pointing at the empty seat besides her.

As she was approaching the table something caught her eye. It was Sam. With her boyfriend.

Ally's mind blanked but she ended up sitting down at the table without even noticing she did. Her ears started to ring. At this point she didn't care if she passed out or not. Her vision was going black and her breathing got fast and obvious as she was watching the couple. Suddenly, she snapped out of it and 'woke up' to both Hannah and Arielle asking if she was alright.
"Ally, are you okay?" They asked in a concerned tone of voice.
"Y-Yeah, I just need some air." Ally said stuttering as she quickly got up and put her jacket on.

As she exited the building she bumped shoulders with Cammie.
"Oh hey." Cammie said but Ally just gave a soft grin and continued to leave.
Cammie then looked to Arielle and Hannah sitting at the table and mouthed "Is she okay?". They both shrugged in unison.

Ally took out a pack of cigarettes and lit one. She immediately coughed.
"Fuck, I hate cigarettes." she said taking a last whiff of it and then throwing it away.
She leaned back against her car, trying to process what just happened. It's been two years since Sam left her, and two months since she thought Sam had left her life. "No no no no no, stop thinking." She said, banging the back of her fist against her car.
She tried so hard to block the thoughts, she didn't even notice Stevie pulling up.
"Hey." Stevie said, it seemed like she was asking a question but Ally wasn't paying attention. At this point she was concentrating on not passing out.
"Stevie!" Arielle said running up to them. Ally looked up and saw that Sam and her boyfriend were leaving the restaurant.
As Arielle was asking if Ally was alright, Ally looked up and saw that Sam was leaving; along with her boyfriend. Ally smiled and nodded as a response.

After both Arielle and Stevie left, Ally closed her eyes and sighed of relief. She went back inside and not realizing her facial expression still seemed like she was upset, the group stared at her. She sat down quietly and both Cammie and Shannon went up to comfort her.

Though the anxiety had started to come back with all these people asking her if she was alright or not, Ally liked the warmth these girls were giving her, and besides, Ally was too weak to move and runaway, anyway.

"Anything you need, we're here." Cammie said while rubbing her back.
"Yes Ally, we mean anything." Shannon sarcastically said while glancing at Cammie. Camden hit Shannon's shoulder in response and mouthed "Not now." while pointing down at Ally.
The three of them chuckled and Cam and Shan put on their happy faces because they made Ally laugh.
"You feeling better now?" Cammie asked. "Yees, thank you." Ally asked smiling. "Great, we'll buy ya a beer." Shannon said enthusiastically.

"Where's Stevie?" Steph asked.
"I think she went outside?" Hannah shrugged.
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As she was walking to her car Stevie came up from behind her.
"Oh hey." Ally said smiling, she was a bit concerned onto why Stevie seemed exhausted and out of breath.
Just before Stevie was about to say something Ally asked,
"So were you just outside the whole time?" She was actually genuinely curious to know where in the hell she went. She didn't even notice she left.
"Yeah, haha." Stevie said smiling faintly. Ally noticed the faint smile and grew even more curious.
"You okay?" Stevie continued to ask.

"Dammit." Ally thought.
"She noticed didn't she. What if she thinks I'm just a sad turd and/or downer. Holy fuck I'm an idiot."

"Oh." Ally said, trying not to look down.

"Don't look sad, don't look sad."
Was what she was actually thinking.
She decided she would just avoid and skip the bullshit and be upfront with what she was upset about.

"Yeah I'm fine, I just get these weird episodes of overwhelming thoughts sometimes."

"Okay. Now how do I continue that."

"When I think too much I get sad, I'm good now though, thanks."

"Damn girl, u good with yo words."

They said their goodbyes. Ally got into her car and watched Stevie get into hers. She didn't notice just how flawless Stevie looked until they had that sober(ish) conversation. She smiled and started her car.
She watched Stevie drive off and after a while drove off herself.

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