Catching You In My Arms (CaKe AU Cara Delevingne X Kendall Jenner)

Chapter 12

Too fast, Kendall. You're going too fast. At this rate, you'll end up like what happened between you and Harry. Kendall told herself as she backed off.

"That's...I don't think we should go too fast Cara. I mean-"

"I know. You've just been through a hard time, and you're still scarred. Just that you are so hard to resist, the way you look at me, makes me want to literally slam you against the wall and rip your clothes off piece by piece," Cara eyebrows scrunched, and Kendall laughed.

"That's one way to say it," she said as she leaned her head back against the sofa. Maybe Harry was wrong. Maybe Kendall was good enough for the world.

"You, know, Kenny, you've never really explained how you and Harry...broke off."

"Yeah, I mean he's found someone new now, and-"

"Wait, he cheated on you?!" Cara suddenly sat up. Kendall was silent for a moment, her eyes fixated on the television screen as flashbacks of their fight raced through her mind. It was painful, building a relationship on a shaky bridge and it being trampled by some model that Harry met in a nightclub.

"Kenny?"

"Huh...? Oh, um, yeah, I'm fine. "

"Did Harry cheat on you?"

"People change, Cara. I can't control Harry on who he loves. I had to let him go or our relationship will just be lies and lies. It's going to happen to everyone one way or another, anyway," Kendall fought back a tear. Cara frowned, before extending her arms and embracing Kendall warmly, Kendall 's face on the crook of her neck.

"Shh, it's okay. Cry it out. You know, with me, you won't have to face betrayal, cheating or anything at all. It's all going to be bliss, Kenny. "

"But why did you let me go, five years before?" Those words hit home.

"Because Kenny...I was stupid. I couldn't fathom why I let you go too. You were such an impact in my life. And even in interviews, if you do watch them, Kenny, I never mentioned us. Why? I wanted to keep our relationship just to us. Our memories, Kenny. The things you cherish the most can't be seen or told, it can only be felt within the heart. You're one of those things. And when I saw you with Harry, I felt my heart break. Not any breakup has ever let me feel that way. And when I kissed you again in that room, I felt something I haven't felt within me. Love, Kenny. Love. And it's such a beautiful thing, you know. "

"That's not really true, Cara. You forgot about me, didn't you?"

"No. I never Kendall. I've gotten through so many people, and none have ever made an impact like you. Like the impact you made on the wall that night," Kendall smiled.

"Why didn't you fix that?"

"Because we're going to make it deeper anyway. I know you'd come back. "

"Oh, Delevingne you arrogant asshole. "

"Jenner, you shit ass liar. "

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  Kendall listened to the soft rock on the radio on the way home. She closed her eyes for a full second, before driving straight again. Maybe it wasn't such a good idea to let Cara back in her life. Maybe Kendall made a mistake.

But no. No mistake was worse than Harry.

Kendall's mind wandered off. The events happened in the past few weeks were unbelievable. First, what happened to Cara? That stab on her back, who did that? Next, Harry. Why'd he just suddenly do that? It's ridiculous. Next, Kendall's sexual orientation. Finally, getting back with Cara. Would that be a good idea? She did let you go, Kendall. But that was five years ago...maybe Cara will change. Maybe it won't be all that bad.

  Kendall got home into her small apartment, the one she didn't share with Harry anymore, and slowly unlocked the door. She plopped down her stuff, and started the tub. The smooth warm water rushing brought a sort of serenity to her mind. It was nice to have some me time. Kendall grabbed a small bottle of wine, and got in the tub, with soft music playing in the background.

In the end, Kendall felt a lot better than she did in a while. She went to the kitchen and made herself some sandwich, and let her hair down and watched so many episodes of Netflix she couldn't even count. She never had the chance to do this with Harry. Usually she would have to please him, both at home and in bed, and the only time she felt free was during her lunch breaks. Lately, right before their breakup and it all happened, Kendall didn't like it anymore. With Harry just being home for a few days, they had to make it last. However, Kendall wasn't feeling it. The same pleasure, happiness and calm being with Harry. It just wasn't the same. Until she found out.

Kendall shrugged off her thoughts, and slowly lay down on her sofa, almost falling asleep. She eventually did slip away, a smile plastered onto her face.

  "Kendall it's not what you think!" He yelled, his eyes still fiery.

"Then what is it Harry? Another one of your one night stands on tour? Yeah, another one of your friends? I didn't know friends kissed that passionately Harry!" She snorted, her eyes watery and her makeup ruined. Their house was an absolute mess. Smashed wine bottles, upturned furniture, and the lingering smell of alcohol and body odour.

"Kendall, don't act like you don't do it too behind my back! I know you and Cara, and it's frustrating! You guys were high school friends, and me and the girl were high school friends too!"

"You don't see us furiously making out onstage do you? Great, now even the whole fandom ships you guys! I'm trash now, aren't I?" She tried walking away, but his hand shot straight to her wrist.

"Don't you leave," he growled, and a chill went down Kendall's spine.

"Harry..."

"You leave, I'll tell the whole fucking world about us, and you and Cara. You're going to ruin all three of our careers, and I hope you don't want that. "

"Let me go! I don't care about you or Cara anymore! It's-" she felt a rap on her cheek, and Harry had slapped her, hard. She could feel the pain set in later, and whimpered.

"You still want that, sweetheart?"

"Harry..." She broke down, but only to be greeted with a kick on her shin.

"Give me two reasons you're getting the house. If no, pack your things and leave right now. "

"Why are you doing all this? Cara?"

"No, I'm just mad that you picked Cara over me but you're angry when I pick the girl over you. This relationship has been falling apart lately, haven't you been seeing that? It's toxic to me. So get out of my fucking house. "

"Harry, we bought this house together. I paid 70% of it!"

"And I've paid you back with countless branded handbags, shoes and parties. Isn't that more than our rent?"

"So that's our relationship to you? Just the pleasure I give, and you reward me with those, to be a good boyfriend? Really, Harry?" Kendall saw it coming. The felt sharp punch on her stomach. Pain exploded, but she sucked it up, shot him a death glare, and got up.

  "It was just a bad dream," Kendall sighed and told herself, in a pool of sweat.